SHENNYYANG

2012-01-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

LONG NIAN XING DA YUN!!

2012-01-25T16:12:00.005+08:00

All geared up in my lucky colour -Green, this year!!! Not that I'm superstitious, but I think I've been super down on my luck for the past few months... so hopefully my luck will change from now on!!

green green blue blue LOL.
On CNY eve, both Don and I were in red. And CNY itself, both of us were in green as well?!
Coincidence or coincidence?!

My belt so friggin loose!!!!!

HUAT AH!!!!!
XUE YE JING BU!!!
ZAO YI GE RU YI LANG JUN!!!

& gambling session!

Super lucky!! I got this like 3times???

Biggest winner of the day!!!! Must be cuz of my lucky green dress hahahaha!

Don't really feel the mood for CNY honestly, cuz this year we can't have decorations at our house, no angpows, can't do visitings and all :(

Met Kareena at night for Helipad!

When I saw her walking towards me, my face immediately went @.@ hahaha.
WE WERE CARRYING THE SAME CLUTCH.
And she was in a turquoise dress??? While mine is like aqua green so it was pretty similar!! Both of our dresses were the drapey kind as well! hahaha

So many people asked if we were twins/sisters that night lol

& Momo!

CNY Day 2 was really boring so not much updates!!

Okay dokey, this week gonna be a real busy one!! Time to head out already!!
Bye lovelies!!!
I send my love <3

Reunion Dinner & Chinatown!

2012-01-23T20:27:00.001+08:00

At the paternal side!

Cuzzies <3

Then Chinatown with my sis while waiting for my friends to come!

My sisters left earlier but I stayed on with my friends for the countdown.... and then IT STARTED POURING LIKE MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! In the end we caught the fireworks under this shelter, covered with wooden planks and trees........ we could only catch a glimpse of the sky being very smokey... and occasionally changing colours cuz of the fireworks. Crappy right!!! & we waited for the rain to stop before grabbing some really cheap mochis!!

yea, watching the fireworks through the gaps between the leaves. Naise. -.-

Changi Village afterwards with the Westerners so we got really really lost, and i'm a total idiot when it comes to directions lol.

Meeting Karx now to chill! Gtg, byebye!! Hope y'all had a wonderful chu-yi today! :D

HAPPY DARGON YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUAT AH!!!

Confessions

2012-01-22T23:10:00.001+08:00

This is really getting on my nerves, to hear from different people on what you've been actually saying.
It's so disgusting at how you can twist and turn facts to your advantage, on how you try saving your own reputation at the expense of MINE, on how you could easily shove all the blame to me as if nothing was ever your fault, for allowing others to create such an awful impression of me.

Even if people already had a bad opinion of me, that I'm some psychotic possessive freaky gf ( and I had this behaviour simply because I love you so much that I'm afraid of losing you?!) but it is seriously not right of you to ruin it further?!

Honestly, think of the things you did to me before you start accusing. If you've done a mistake, admitting to it won't kill. Or is pride all that matters to you?? Think of the lies u said, before you use another lie to cover up your previous lies. This is just a vicious cycle that will haunt you forever. At least I know I did you wrong as well, I admitted and I'm sincerely apologetic for that.

People have eyes to see what's right/wrong, we all have ears to listen to the truth, and we have mouths to speak up.

So seriously, THINK BEFORE YOU SAY. Cuz when the ugly truth is out, I'm sure it wouldn't look good on you.

Lastly, ENOUGH is enough, even if I'm nice to you, there's a limit to everything. _|_

:D

2012-01-21T16:28:00.002+08:00

*\o/* *\o/* *\o/*
I'm really excited about some of the things that are coming up!!!!!!!

You came at just the right time

2012-01-20T03:59:00.001+08:00

So I've been into quite a bit of self indulgence the past few days... Some awesome food around, a facial session yesterday, did my gel nails&pedi today, shopping therapy, meeting up with people - old friends, new friends... and there's gonna be a visit to the dentist tmr!! Need to make my teeth sparkling white haha. That really sounds like a lot of personal grooming sessions hehe.

Anyway, I just realised I'm into the last 5 lectures for the different modules I'm taking this year! THAT'S HOW FAST!? Didn't school just started for me.... and now BAM!!! Lectures ending --> Prelims --> FINALS. 4 months of holidays again. WHUTTT?!?!?!?!?!?! Abit ridiculous eh.

ps/ Just received an email from Sogurt for an interview which I applied eons ago~ The thing is, I doubt I'll be going... but let's say.. IF i decide to go, IF i really did manage to get in.... and IF i get to work with HER. Hahaha sounds like alot of fun to me. That's why, Frolick and Sogurt shall always be rivals. Peace out~

If only...

2012-01-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

Humans are more sensitive to the people around them, to the feelings of others, to their surroundings, to the words they say.
Won't it be a better place to live in?

I'm still trying to work on this though.

One Step Closer

2012-01-17T00:40:00.001+08:00

And when it comes, would you keep your night free for me?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

2012-01-16T22:39:00.001+08:00

Awesome durian desserts at Bugis!! I'm not a big fan of durians so if I say it's awesome, it must be good lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANG LAU PA!!
Though I know you probably won't be reading this.... but I LOVE YOU!!!! You're the best dad I can ever ask for! Always buying all my favourite food, fetching me around (cuz i'm a lazy ass + no license hahaha) and I know you dote on me the most ^^
You're getting old and your immune system ain't that strong anymore :( I want you to be there cheering for me when I graduate. I want you be there as my witness on my wedding day. It's still a long loooooonnnggg way to go so please take good care of your health ok!!!!!

<3

Keep on keepin' on

2012-01-15T23:00:00.008+08:00

Over exhausted, and now I'm sick :( Hope I'll be well soon before CNY!
Speaking of which, I've not bought any clothes for CNY!! Neither have I done my nails :'( So damn screwed

And I have to close my eyes and hide

2012-01-14T02:48:00.006+08:00

We smuggled Kar in hehehe :p

Luv all the frolick babies!!

It's quite funny how my friends are naming me "Faithful Single" LOL cuz I've been meeting up alot with my gfs!!

ANYWAY,

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!

MAKE A GUESS WHERE I WENT THIS AFTERNOON.......

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CAN YOU BELIEVE YOUR EYES ANOT HAHAHAHA

I seriously didn't notice the small little pic at the bottom -.- it's like inserted under my glass table for the longest time and i'm too lazy to retake a pic for the books cuz I've already edited the colours :( That aside, I really really REALLY DAMN WANT TO LEARN MANUAL (Just to prove all you my friends out there I CAN PASS MANUAL *flicks hair), I chose Auto in the end cuz all cars nowadays are auto right!?! And I want to pass on my first virgin attempt!!!!! I'm SURE I will pass manual someday but it may not be on my first attempt!! Auto seems to be a much safer bet then!

Hahahaha are you all proud of me?! I think my mum got a shock when I mentioned to her about it. I woke up at what.... 2pm!? And I was like "Ma u free?? Drive me to Ubi register driving!!" (Mum turns around, looks at me with a very strange look). Ohwell, just as nice since I have more time to spare now and I have no one to bring me around anymore :( *pouts*

Going for a short weekend getaway! Doubt I'll be taking much pictures... but hope y'all would enjoy your weekend here in Singapore!!! :D

2012-01-13T04:35:00.001+08:00

Temptations.

Love isn't complicated, PEOPLE ARE.

2012-01-12T02:48:00.001+08:00

Someone sent this to me today:
"Everyone says love hurts. But that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again."

Time to be strong, my dear.

We all begin as strangers.

2012-01-11T02:56:00.006+08:00

"It all comes down to the last person you think of at night.

That's where your heart is."

I was with the 3 lonely souls yesterday after my days of disappearance!!

And Stef showed me this video last night!

Which is... HOW TRUE. The different stages of a relationship. Go watch it if you haven't!! I teared at the ending :(
What a crybaby ;'(

Read the comments for the video and there's one that I PARTICULARLY LIKED ALOT:

And there should be stages called "Third Chances" or even "Fourth Chances".
I hate that you are giving up without even fighting for it.

Yes, I am still moodless for pics hahaha.
And yes I've been really busy with my phone these days. I can have up to 13bbm chats.. srsly. These are things that you only get when you're single - the guys start acty all nice to you. puiiiiii~

And one of the many good reasons about staying at my sis's hotel would be for the good food all around!!! The famous Rocher Tauhuay/chicken rice. And the 24hrs foodcourt beside the hotel! Love the beehoon there yumyum! Oh and Red Mango is merely a 1min walk away. Awesome or what!!!

I was reading alot about Zodiac compatibility last night! I know not many would believe in it.. But I really do!! I'll never ever fail to check my dailyhoroscope app on my bb! Most of the time it's always quite true, at least for the past 1week or so, damn accurate!! But then again, I'm not that superstitious kind of person.

Anyway, I found out that my zodiac - LEO, is compatible with Sagittarius, Aries, Gemini and Libra!

"A very compatible pair, Gemini man and Leo woman will have a great love life except for a very few grey areas in their lives. It has all the potential of developing into a long lasting bond. Since both like to be the center of attraction in social events and parties, they never fell short of meaningful conversation. At least no one around them will become bored.

Only requirement for Gemini man is to control is flirtatious nature while Leo woman will have to shed some of her dominant natures and give the Gemini man enough space not to suffocate him out of her life. It is one of the most difficult tasks pinning the Gemini man down. Gemini likes to be jack of all traders and master of none because it becomes easier not to get involved in something forever.

Point of clash between the two may be the offshoot of too much fluctuating nature of Gemini coupled with the natural flair for dominance of the Leo woman. She will always try to tame the Gemini man and will always expect that the man will cherish, love, and respect her showering her with veritable showers of praise. Just by flattering her Gemini man can win over the lioness. Leo woman will find the constant change of pace by her Gemini man difficult to cope up. Running at full pace he will suddenly stop in his tracks, while she will be looking forward towards a constant a stable relationship that will give stability and security and that may end up with some serious feud.

When satisfied; Leo woman will show great passion as well as affection for the Gemini man. Sexual life would be highly contended and trouble free. If Gemini man can show the finesse as well as delicacy that Leo woman craves for that will mean he is giving everything that the Leo woman is looking for.

If Leo takes Gemini's flirty, outgoing nature too seriously, or if Gemini thinks Leo wants to maintain total control of the relationship, arguments may break out. Though their approaches are different -- Gemini likes to analyze things from all sides in an intellectual conversation while Leo would rather not talk about it and just jump right in -- they are well-matched.

Both Leo and Gemini have a lot of energy. Leo likes to be at the helm of any project, endeavor or outing; Gemini wants to be free to think as fast and as far as they please. Direct, decisive Leo can help Gemini make a decision if they start to vacillate due to their ability to see all the options -- but Leo must take care not to be too bossy, which will turn Gemini off.

Leo is ruled by the Sun (Self) and Gemini by the Planet Mercury (Communication). Both of these Signs are skilled at communication as their planetary influences are similar; they just have different approaches to self-expression. They may also have heated debates, but while Gemini finds it fun and mentally stimulating, Leo takes it quite seriously and can get their feelings very hurt.

Gemini is an Air Sign and Leo is a Fire Sign. Air fuels Fire and helps it spread far and wide. Gemini has an easy time of keeping up with Leo's energy and creativity. Leo tends to be dramatic and demonstrative, and brainy Gemini always understands Leo's message. The best thing is, Leo can have an energetic, active day -- and then come home at night and tell Gemini all about it.

Leo is a Fixed Sign and Gemini is a Mutable Sign. Leo is stubborn and resolute, a great leader and somewhat rigid when it comes to changing their ideas or direction. When Leo makes up their mind, they'll see something through to the end. Gemini, on the other hand, is flexible in the extreme. They become bored easily and have no problem letting Leo take the lead -- to a certain extent. Gemini wants to be the leader of their own thoughts. They're happy to be in the background, content with their thoughts while Leo takes the spotlight and the glory.

A word of caution for Gemini man would be not to display infidelity or even flirting with others in the presence of the Lioness. She is not going to excuse it with her inherent jealousy and problems in relationship could surface immediately."

True? TRUE.

Btw, CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHO IS @KAYPOHQUEEN???

See what he/she tweeted me! I agree to her tweet though lol.
But just... who's this person!!!

I love late night talks. Those that make u confess everything on how you feel. Pouring out all emotions to that one person. Crying out loud. That.. vulnerable feeling. But it always feels so good after it. Like a burden off my shoulder.

Sometimes I wish things were how they used to be, because those days meant so much to me. What if I say the life I want to live is to be with you?

Sad part is... I still do not hate you

2012-01-09T02:15:00.005+08:00

How apt. I remembered a quote from tumblr saying 'if you wanna know how a girl truly feels, read her tumblr and you'll know'. True that.

Today's my first time going out after days of isolating myself. Ballroom dancing was great and kind of fun in fact! I had reserves about it initially cuz like... ballroom dancing uhuhuh right? But we had to learn it for the d&d. I just hope I won't be freaked out by such events. All the officers, pretty elegant ladies and.. ballroom dancing. It's my first time attending such an event lol. Time to find an appropriate dress. Anyway the best was chacha, so easy, fun and... tiring. #exercise
Waltz on the other hand was a disaster. I can only follow the first few steps and it gets damn CONFUSING on which leg to move front or back, and which direction to turn. Lol no wonder Dajie &Jack kept practising the other time for their wedding. Me #fail

And in case I've been mia for too long and y'guys miss me...
Here's finally a pic of me! One picture only though, I am still moodless for shots.

I think I have the sad look in this picture. Sigh..

Swirl Art for lunch!

Halfway through.. the shop was playing Iyaz So Big. I really love this song alot. Then I started remembering that we used to dance to this song after his pageant finals. And... I actually started tearing on the spot inside the shop. What a big time loser I am right :(

Went to Erjie's place to crash cuz I slept really little and I was super worn out from all the dancing~

Dinner @ Manhattan with Erjie and her friend!

Massive amount of food but I ate very little though. Still trying to get my appetite back...
Halfway through I got pretty emotional again though cuz I got reminded that we had our lunch here on our 4th year anni :(

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I guess the worst and most bastard thing to ever do is to talk bad about your previous gfs. Dude, show some respect here. It's also a form of respect for yourself as well. It will only show what a miser you are and how petty you can get. It is also a very ungentlemanly act. Before asking people to watch their words, think about what you said and what you did first please.
#justsaying

Anw people, I'm starting to answer some fs questions alr. Relationship related questions will still be unanswered for now though. Hope y'all would understand ;)

ps: Please keep to your promise.

Fame

2012-01-09T01:21:00.007+08:00

I don't yearn for fame. I don't try getting famous through blogging. This blog has been with me since 15 and gone are the days when the readers came from my bulk of friends. Honestly, I have no idea how did the readership increase cuz my life is so damn boring. It's an average of about 500-700 readers a day for now. If you wanna talk about famous, this number is certainly nothing impressive as compared to the rest of the popular ones.
I've done NOTHING to increase my readerships. I don't pay people to advertise my blog ( will anyone even do that?!). I don't tweet like how some people do such as... "XXX post blogged! Check it out @ blahblah.blogspot.com". I don't link my blog posts to facebook either whereby everytime there's a new post, my fb would automatically be updated. I don't talk about sensitive topics that might cause outrage or posts that will make it up to the news. In short, I don't make a scene.

In fact, I get quite paranoid sometimes because I don't know when I'll ever meet some of you readers out there. The consciousness of being well presented. Moreover getting questions on my fs like " I saw u at frolick/school/some other random places". Quite freaky rightttttt. I don't want to be highly recognised too?? But blogging has become such a part of my life. Writing about the daily happenings and posting pictures. It'd serve as a memory when you're old and you can start reading about your life when you were young, how drama it used to be? In fact I've been reading my older posts already hahaha. It's quite amazing how much I've changed physically wowWOW. But I also understand that not everything should be publicly shared, thus the need for my own private blog.

So, get your facts right before you start accusing about me being a high profile person. About me yearning for all the fame and popularity that I don't really give two hoots about.

Memories

2012-01-08T03:08:00.001+08:00

Insomnia so... I'm looking through old pictures. The good ol' times. Really made me smile sillily to myself.
Why did things turn out the way it is today?

The Best Years of our Lives

2012-01-07T19:17:00.025+08:00

"Sometimes thing can go right only by first going very wrong."

The 2 plushies that have been with me the past few years.
The Nemo was a surprise gift given randomly during our FIRST overseas trip, to Redang for diving. Otw back to Singapore, he bought me this plushie from a roadside stall for me to hug while sleeping in the 10hr ride bus. The Piglet was given as part of a X'mas present I think... I love poking the nose inside-out (like in the picture). It'd irritate the hell out of him and he'll pull the nose out. I'll poke it inwards again. (cycle continues) lol
Times like these..

And the seashells he painstakingly brought back all the way from Cebu back to Sg 2weeks ago. He was so afraid of the shells breaking. But seems like the seashells are much tougher. They aren't as fragile and weak as compared to us, our 5years r/s.

Anyhowz, this song's been accompanying me every single night before I can fall asleep.
Listen to it!! It's real touching. I'd always be in tears at the end of the song :'( Cuz it'd just remind me of so much...

We had the best years of our lives
But you and I would never be the same
September took me by surprise
And I was left to watch the seasons change

It´s been so quiet since you´ve gone
And everyday feels more like a year
Sometimes I wish I could move on
The memories would all just disappear

So many things I should've
Said when I had the chance
So many times we took it all for granted

I´d never thought this could ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning

I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning

Looking back on better days
When we were young,
we thought we knew so much
And now it seems so far away
Of wondering if I was good enough

So many things I should´ve
Said when I had the chance
So many times we took it all for granted

I´d never thought we would ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning

I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning

Gone are all the days
When we swore we´d never break
And now I´m left here alone

I´d never thought we would ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning

I´d never thought this could ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning

I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning

I'm sorry my dear friends.
I'm sorry that I just disappeared from every single one of you without any warning. I'm sorry I was uncontactable for 3days. But it touches my heart so much whenever I switched on my phone, the countless missed calls/bbm/whatsapp/texts/tweets from you guys. I'm sorry for making you all worried. I'm sorry for having foolish thoughts. I'm sorry and I love every single one of you who stood by me.
Thanks frolick babygirls Steph Cass Yanzhen Weizhen Huizhen Kareena Cheryl Valentina Wendy Florencia! Love you girls!
Thanks to all my uni peeps esp Jingxuan Gracia Qixuan Stephanie Louie Alex Shaun Nicholas Clarence!
Thanks to all other friends, Eileen Jaime Gw Huiyi Vincent who dropped those lovely texts to cheer me on :)
Thanks Cuzzies Janelle and Derek for being there as well!!
Thanks Weizhen for being so harsh to wake me up. Sorry to make u so pekchek hahaha
I hope I didn't leave anyone out :p
Everyone but you, wished and prayed that I would be okay.

I've decided to open up to the world today, and thanks everyone for... everything. I swear I've never been so busy with my phone this much. Having almost 9 conversations in bbm, 5 in whatsapp, all the texts and countless tweets. *inserts whatsapp shocked emoticon. And everyone asking me out to keep me occupied. Thanks lovelies. *Blows flying kisses

And to those lovely formspringers, thanks for the encouraging words as well. Rest assured I've read every single questions of yours. Just that.... I'm in no mood to answer any :( But i am still checking everyday. So keep your questions coming in, I'll read them :) I'll prolly answer them... another time when I feel like to.

I've also been having this really really bad insomnia the past 3days. I sleep as late as 6am. And I wake up as early as 9 or 10am every day. And I would always wake up in a shock?? I'll be "Is this for real???" and then realised IT IS FOR REAL. Whattheshit. Sigh.

AND MY LOVELY 2 SISTERS

I'll never ever trade anything for them <3 I love hearing to Dajie's love stories. How she eventually carried on, and now she's happily married. Sometimes I really wonder how people can move on. Perhaps time, can really heal everything. And thanks Erjie for listening to me the entire night last night, all the way till wee hours of 4am.

What's meant to be yours, will eventually be.

On a side note, I'm attending my first ballroom dance practise tmr!!! Hope the d&d will help take my mind off things.
Time to be strong and start meeting more people. But I know a part of me will still always be waiting for him. :(

Oh and I lost weight.
Say hello to a flatter tummy!!! I can no longer inflate and bloat up my tummy anymore :( Sigh I used to compete with him and see whose tummy is rounder :(
Needless to say, I win HANDS DOWN.

BUTT OFF

2012-01-07T17:12:00.021+08:00

DON'T GET INVOLVED
DON'T GET INVOLVED
DON'T GET INVOLVED

It's quite amazing how everyone is somehow connected to one another. Hearing things about you and your... bf/ex?? I have no idea what's the status. And I don't wish to bother as well cuz I'm not involving in your affairs like how you want to be involved in mine.

More badmouthing and I am definitely capable of being a total bitch if this continues.

I hate and loathe people who mess my life up. Fucked up.
And I always believe that Karma exists.

Choices

2012-01-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

I just hoped that you didn't lie again.
I just hoped there wasn't any 3rd party again.

I just hoped none of these has ever happened.

Hiatus, goodbye

2012-01-05T15:58:00.002+08:00

Despite everything, you're still the only one I want to cling on to. I'm so hopeless..

So don't go
Don't leave
Please stay
With me
You are the only thing I need to get by
Losing you is one of my fears
Together we're gon' make history
Why would you wanna be elsewhere?

Love you long time.

What a starry night, feels like the stars are shining for me

2012-01-05T04:25:00.004+08:00

In the end, I'm someone easily replaceable. Someone easily forgotten..
I'll drown in my own tears tonight

I dreamt of you for the past 2 nights

2012-01-04T14:39:00.002+08:00

I think I'm on this verge of being mentally unsound lol. I SHOULD JUST STOP OVERTHINKING.

- off to town~

Liar

2012-01-04T01:41:00.009+08:00

I guess we are all victims of our own minds. We overthink situations. We picture the worst case scenarios. Then we'll convince ourselves to believe them, thinking it's all true when in fact, it's merely imaginations of ours. We get ourselves all worked up for.. nothing. In the end, the ones who suffer and get hurt are none other than us. It's so bad that sometimes I feel like... I'm starting to hallucinate. Even my friends said so. I'd mistake other people for you. I'll daze out and take a few moments before I snap back into reality.
What the shit is this.

Oh ya, 6th sense BINGO-ed today again.

*The rest of my rantings are finally all vented out in my private blog. The feeling is so damn awesome can?! That I can say anything I want without restrictions. I don't even feel like I have my own freedom of speech here. Even though it's rightfully, MY blog.

New Year's Eve

2012-01-02T16:24:00.000+08:00

And AGAIN... I was with the 3 lonely souls!!!
Supposed to have more joining us such as Cass, Yanzhen and Huizhen but all ps last min :(

Pastamania for dinz!

Dickson invited me to his countdown event at F1 Pit Building and he gave me 6 guestlists! Awesomexzx much!

The place is like really HUGE. This SHOULD be the size for Phuture seriously.

hehe luv this pic!

FIREWORKS!

Watching the fireworks reminded me lotsa stuffs such as.. last year, I was still with P counting down and we were watching the fireworks together :(

Hapz 3 friends

Asked Adriel to come over to the Pit Building as well since he was telling me he's driving down to watch the fireworks!

The bottle last warning. SO BIG FOR WHAT

I wanted a pic with Ivy... then all these people joined in and i dont even know them?? Lol.

Ian &Dickson! My birthday organisers!

Her eyes DAMN BIG!?! 3times of mine can!!

Stef was so ultimate gone that night. Literally gone kind. No cab even wanted to pick us up yknow :(
& I couldn't sent her home when she's in this state. lol. I only reached home like... 3.30pm the next day?

New Year dinner at sis's place!!!

ps: I wonder how you celebrated your new year's eve/your new year/how you're doing... sigh.

HAPPY 2012!!!!

2012-01-01T17:31:00.002+08:00

First post of the year! I hope you guys had a blast counting down last night!!!!
Yesterday was just too crazy and intensive for me hahaha... Gonna go hibernate again now!

Loves&kisses!

CHRISTMAS 2011!!

2011-12-31T19:34:00.002+08:00

X'mas eve at Kareena's place!

Hahaha can u believe it?! X'mas eve and the 3 of us were at kopitiam eating rojak and red ruby -.-
We were the only young ones there!! The rest were either uncles/aunties or small lil kids accompanying their parents lol

X'mas cookie from Kareena!

We were bored so we went Omega and Chatroulette to chat with people all over the world.
The people there are quite sick in the mind though -.-

prezzie from sissy!

X'mas with Huizhen!

Met Ivy there as well ;)

Boxing day with my uni peeps. It was a disappointment though that so many didn't turn up last min :(

We ate at Nando's!

present to him!

ECP with Pierre!

Love it when he's driving. I can literally stare all day long. Damn mesmerizing esp when he's parking the car :O

Thanks for the prezzie :D

The food was quite a disappointment though cuz we were expecting it to be good since the reviews claimed it so!

We took a long stroll along ecp after dinner. It was great :) The nice weather makes everything perfect as well! heh then I asked him "Do you still rmb when was the first time we came to ecp together?"

AND HE COULDN'T REMEMBER :( *hearts break
Haha but well I do!! It was after the first time we partied together. We came to ecp for macs after that, &sat on some bench at the beach. That was almost 5years ago. O.o

Blic for ice cream!

he loves the seasalt malt!

Yup that's all! LAST DAY OF 2011 ALREADY.

Time to get ready to countdown! See ya folks!

xoxo

Private Blog

2011-12-31T03:56:00.003+08:00

Yeap!! I've finally created a new blog SOLELY JUST FOR MYSELF.
Now I can pen down all feelings/rantings whichever and however I want it to be!! Without anyone judging. Without anyone criticising. Without anyone asking. Without the fear of people reading it.

Ok maybe I'll let a few good friends know (that is if they ask me) but that's about it. ;)

ps: I was all in tears while typing my first post :'( If people could read my mind and know what I've been thinking and going through, you would all probably be in tears as well..

Last Ladies Night of 2011!

2011-12-30T23:12:00.063+08:00

It was a SUPER DUPER IMPROMPTU decision to head to Phuture that day!! We decided only after I ended teaching tuition which was 8pm? hahaha it was the last ladies night of the year so it was FRIGGIN PACKED. But I honestly didn't expect it to be THAT mad packed. 1030pm and phuture was full house already?!
We only had the stamp to Zouk :'(

P's friends, Bc and Daryl (used to calling him Alex though)!

Kareena and Eileen ^^
Eileen's hair still damn red can. How jealous is that!! Mine's already brown?? :(

Kareena who was super gone that night. like really g-o-n-e hahaha. EMPTY STOMACH REALLY KILLS.
Luckily Eileen was there to takecare of her!!! Cuz I was running around looking for P/trying to collect their bags for them which the security just wouldn't allow!! How annoying is that?!

hahaha kareena...

Kenneth!

Saw so many friends that night!! Everyone were literally everywhere hehe. And can you believe it..... Yeaa I forgot to take a picture with P -.- lol

Then today, met the other 2 lonely souls again for movie!! Watched 'The Darkest Hour' and it was kinda good...except that the ending left us all (????). We came to a conclusion there's gonna be a 2nd part to it! The invisible alien was kinda lame though lol.

I have so much free time on hand now and I really hate how free I am. I want those mad packed busy days back!!! I need to find something to occupy myself. I NEED TO BE BUSY. Or else I'll be a sad soul thinking of those sad stuffs... :(

Tmr is the last day of 2011 already. HOW TIME FLIES RIGHT.
Can't wait to countdown tmr to 2012!!!

2012 GOT TO BE A BETTER YEAR. IT HAS TO BE! Cuz 2011 has been far too sucky for me :'(

Batam Vlog!

2011-12-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

Such good memories are here to stay &worth remembering.

ps: I know there's a big error there!!! It should be Go Kart NOT Go Cart!!! Hahaha but anyhow I'm too lazy to change it :(
And sorry for the really LOUSY quality cuz I had to convert my MOV file to WMV to be able to work in Windows Movie Maker and somehow during the conversion, the quality became meh-ish :(

Because Shit Happens

2011-12-28T04:29:00.000+08:00

BATAM!

2011-12-27T19:36:00.005+08:00

Got this Batam deal from deal.sg at $77/pax which includes a night stay at a 4star hotel (quite mehh~), 7 course seafood lunch, massage, flying fox &a buffet breakfast! I wanted the Bintan deal initially cuz I've never been there before BUT THE DAMN DEAL JUST HAD TO BLACKOUT the holidays period ;(

Breakfast at Harbourfront centre!

on the ferry~

The ferry ride was quite fast, 45mins or so?

in the coach!

some polo factory outlet~

flying fox!

No pictures of us doing the flying fox cuz we took a video!! (ok i'll try editing the videos I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO EDIT :{ )

Lunch at Golden Prawn 933!

sucky coconut juice~

he loves wearing my shades hahaha

tryna act gay

MY RED HAIRRRRRRR ^^
but i think the colour is fading alr :'(

Go Cart!

The plan was that Pierre will play, and i will just take pics/video for him.... but then he forced me into playing it with him. Mygod i really hate it. I think i have a phobia of driving, no sense of directions, and fear of banging into walls. Or blocking people's way. lol

:(

It was QUITE DIFFICULT ok, as in the steering wheel was damn difficult to turn. My arms were aching from it the next day :(

Shopping at some cui shopping mall

The best place in the mall would be the arcades!! Cuz it's damn friggin cheap!

We had so much fun playing this thingy (idk the name for it) hahaa! People were watching us while we were playing!

Massage!

AND THEN FINALLY TO THE HOTEL

Doesn't look like a 4star hotel right right right!!!!!

Showered &went out for our dinner!

love the butter squids!!! :D

View from the hotel the next morning! It's quite nice cuz the hotel is up on some hill!

breakfastttttttttttt~

Megamall before departure!
We wanted to catch a movie but i'm really afraid that the movie will be shown in malay language?? So we just roamed around, and killed time by going to the arcade again! ~.~

CHECK OUT OUR SCORE
LEFT IS ME, RIGHT IS HIM!
I WON HIM EH!!!!
AND HE'S A BASKETBALL CAPTAIN BACK THEN?! LOL.

AND I FREAKING WON HIM AGAIN!!!
50 - 40!!! I AM HOW ZAI hahaha

But he won all subsequent games after my 2 victories :(

Prizes we won from the points collected!

A&W before leaving Batam!

The trip wasn't exactly fun cuz Batam is boring to start with. On top of that, P was sick (fever/diarrhoea/lethargic) from his Philippines trip. And we all know how sucky it feels like to travel when you're sick :(

Anyhowz, I think going to Batam for a day trip would be more than enough for the cheap thrills ^^
But I doubt I'll be heading there again anytime soon~

I'll end this post with 2 gif images hehe

Goodbye!!

Merry Christmas!!!

2011-12-25T16:13:00.003+08:00

x'mas eve with the other 2 lonely girls~

Hope y'all are having a blast with your loved ones!!!
I'm just at home rotting my day away.... :(

To think I actually thought that I could be the happiest girl on earth this X'mas. It's nothing but a wishful thinking of mine. Sigh~

Away

2011-12-23T01:20:00.001+08:00

So let's just leave everything to fate.
Goodnight world

Xoxo

Day 21

2011-12-21T13:43:00.001+08:00

He's finally gonna be back today!!!

XLB + I DYED MY HAIR!

2011-12-20T23:50:00.079+08:00

Mega sad that we didn't make it for the xlb buffet cuz the buffet is only available from 5pm onwards??? And we were there at 12pm =.= lol

XLB!!!!!

aiyo Qx looks so cute here!!

Then to Cold Rock!

Since last year, we called ourselves the 'Mean Girls' LOL, that's why we had the school theme days during our Year 1 if y'guys recalled....

We googled images on them &attempted to pose like them HAHAHA

LOL
#fail or #pass???? hahahahahahaha

last pic of my messy hair!!!! Black roots all out!!!

Did my hair at Vintage Studio located at HV!!! It was a birthday prezzie from Jingxuanbby - Dye + scalp treat + express mani&pedi!

Quite a cosy salon ^^
They even did a scalp analysis for me!

Dropped by frolick to find Cass!

Gosh i looked so tired!!! Slept for only... 4hrs??? And had morning lecture, lunch with friends, dyed hair yada yada, totally worn out :(

I hope the colour wouldn't fade that fast!!!! All my friends who had red hair before said it'd fade after 2weeks or so which is damn S-I-A-N.

Anyhowz, 1 more day to the arrival of fat chaotah pig!!!!!

FIRST VLOG

2011-12-20T20:33:00.004+08:00

taken yesterday~

# I know I look DAMN CUI. :( I was contemplating if I should upload it cuz my face is like how round. Bad angle ttm cuz I can't tilt my camera downwards to make my face look slimmer :<
# PREASEEEE DON'T LAUGH AT ME OR I WILL CRY :(

Hahhahaha well actually I took alot more videos with the MEAN GIRLZ (Vivien Qixuan&Steph) but they're like "ohno it's Shenny's camera!! It's going up to her blog.. NOOOO~" hahaha and we were doing REALLY SILLY STUPID &FUNNY stuffs so I'm not posting up here!! Hence this first Vlog!!! And cuz I've finally dyed a new colour!!! I am like always in brown.. different shades of brown, so now it's RED hair for the change!!
But it still looks brown in the video so... mehhhhh~~~

FESTIVE SHOPPING

2011-12-17T18:01:00.001+08:00

I remembered seeing this shorts in HURS retailing for $39.90? I wanted to buy it so much cuz I really liked it but I managed to control my urge and I was convincing myself to 'try my luck' in bkk first! HEHE GUESS WHAT I REALLY MANAGED TO FIND IT IN BKK!!! For only $8!!!! Awesomezzz.
Why isn't shopping in sg as cheap as bkk :(

qt ribbon ring from bkk as well!!! So sparkly and shiny under the lights so nice!!!!

Headed to town alone first. I was walking to FEP when i walked past the legendary A&F!!
Y'all know right for the past few days, there were 20 rather hot guys standing outside A&F.. but i was busy so I couldn't make it down :( There wasn't any queue to enter the store yesterday when I reached cuz it was kinda early so I managed to snap a picture with this cutie model!!!

Good right they give you free instax somemore!!!!
&HE IS SO CUTE HAHAHAHA.. agree?? hehehe

Abit weird seeing asians working inside A&F cuz it has always been angmohs and more hot angmohs in A&F in the US outlets I went to! But ok la the standard still there~ Hopefully the standard won't drop as like all other brands... *.^

Then I went to do my eyebrows... bought some stuffs and Steph finally came!!
So we went to A&F again....

Took another shot with another model HAHAH DAMN THICK SKINNED I KNOW :p
Steph finds his nipples annoying cuz it's a lil too big, isn't it?!? HAHAHA

Red Mango YUMMYYYZ

STEPH IN RED HAIR ALR!! She just dyed it yesterday!! So chio omg.
I'm gonna dye mine on Monday!!! Hahaha I kept putting her hair beside my face to see if it'd suit me lol

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!
Cuz it gives you a reason to shop without feeling so guilty as compared to any other days...

LOVE THE WEDGES!! Shall wear it on X'mas day :D

Got this from Editor's Market! Initially Steph only wanted a pair of shorts, but the more you buy the cheaper it is right? So we found another girl &we managed to have 3items. The girl's friend came and it became like 6items altogether means even cheaper!! Then there was another group at the cashier area and we combined again... 14items!! So in the end I took the top above to make it 15items for the cheapest possible price!
Mine was initially $39, but I ended up paying only $20! (Y)

I hate how my makeup depletes all at the same time... Major burnt in my wallet :(
Bobbi Brown why you so ex?! :"(

2012 Organiser!!

CUTE!!!

Stumbled onto this page which is the world map in the organiser. I was really damn bored so i started highlighting the places I've visited before.
hahahaha I still have tons of unvisited places :( *cries

I want Korea Japan New Zealand!!!!! And some other European countries like Germany Amsterdam Italy!!! Hopefully if I can get into LSE for summer exchange, I can travel these countries!!!! Sigh money why you no drop from the sky??? #timetosave

Wonder Wondering

2011-12-17T12:04:00.001+08:00

Who are you honestly?? Who can it be?!

DAY 15

2011-12-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

School the other day!!

And Vivien is always full of nonsense lah haha! She drew this timeline to countdown to the end of lesson O.o

Dinner with mummy at Manpuku!

Taken with my itouch hence the lousy quality.
Sometimes i wonder isn't the back camera supposed to be better than the front?? Mine seems to work the other way lol.

New facial wash and I'm lovin' it!!! So fluffy&soft and skin feels so smooth after washing it!!!!

Dinner yesterday~

YUMMYZ!!

Took picture and sent to P and he went O.O &was complaining about the food in Philippines hehehe

Went back to my Alma Mater today for volleyball!!
Had friendly matches with the juniors and we won all 4 sets even though most of us haven't been playing anymore. The last time i played was when i was 18 lol. Whoopppzz!!! :D It's also really nice to see old teammies again and the usual catchup session hehe <3

HAHAHA eileen lie until likka shiok only!!!

Anw, I finally skyped with P last night after 14 days!!! But we couldn't talk cuz his roommate was already asleep :( It's nice to see him though. Looks much tanner &thinner(?? he kept saying he slimmed down already hahaha)

Can't wait for Monday!! XLB buffet & I'll be dyeing my hair! :D
Sigh but i really need to shed some weight... still buffet omg.

6 MORE DAYS WHOOO~

Scotland - Edinburgh

2011-12-14T20:22:00.056+08:00

I remembered we reach the airport a tad too early, so we settled in some cafe while waiting for time to pass. I misread the gate closing time as the boarding time, so we ended up chasing after the plane. Hahahahah hilarious, reminds me so much of my Peru times when we chased after almost every single flight &Phuket with Jingxuan when we almost missed our plane as well. Lol~

We reached Edinburgh in... 2hours time? Pretty fast. Then we were stuck in the airport cuz I didn't know the way to the hotel. LOL. In the end I had to pay to use the computer in the airport to check for directions hahahaha #researchfail

Hotel room which was $500 for 2nights? WAH PIANG SO EX. And it's just a guesthouse ok...
It was the peak period when we visited!! Blame it on the international festival!!

We went to the musuem cuz according to lonely planet, it's one of the top 10 things to do LOL.

Ohya one of the top 10 things to do includes a 'Ghost' tour in same creepy lane. Really tempted to go and my mum even said she'll accompany me... but it's scary uh?? Very scared I will be possessed or something. I must have been watching too much of incredible tales HAHAHA.

All the buildings here are greyish/brown in colour which is damn dull.
Looks really interesting initially but after a while..... the whole town looks quite gloomy especially when it's raining lol.

FRINGE festival!

And it is really REALLY COLD. Accompanied with strong winds and drizzles....... ~.~

We went to watch one of the dancing show as well.......... but i fell asleep halfway cuz idk how to appreciate such dance. Thought it'd be a hiphop kind of dance performance :(

Edinburgh castle! #1 thing to do in Edinburgh accordingly to lonely planet again lol

Lonely planet books are my favourite when it comes to travelling!!

Nothing much to take as well in the castle cuz..... everything looks the same to me =.=

lunch @ Nando's!

#2 thing to do!! Watch the military tattoo!

So nice uh the buildings like golden colour cuz of the sunset :D

LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF PEOPLE GOING TO WATCH MILITARY TATTOO @_@

Military band!

IT WAS MAD FREEZING COLD in the night but thank god it wasn't raining

The rain only stopped on my last day there.... WHHUUTTT???!!
So the Royal Mile finally seemed more alive with more performers!!

See finally so crowded. Past few days were mehhh~

I merely wanted a picture of them then the tall guy asked me over to stand beside him, he even put his hat on me hehe!! :O I remembered a few others wanted to take with them as well but they didn't allow LOL.

resting w my dad hehehehe

We had nothing much to do on the last day so it was just some last minute shopping at Urban Outfitters and H&M :)
Okay time to edit my Paris pictures hahaha I've been soooooo lazy!!!

Day 7

2011-12-11T21:47:00.001+08:00

I kind of miss my bf alot suddenly... Wished that he's here right beside me now :(

10 more days!!!

FUNNNN AT WORKKK!!!

2011-12-11T00:44:00.006+08:00

It's finally Christmas period again, hence no more visor but cute hairbands!!!!! Thank God this year Frolick isn't forcing us to wear FUGLY Santa hats!!

Omg cute right!! Hahahaha esp the fusion between Santa and the toppings!! tsk!

With Felicia!

& Danellia!

CHERYL!!!! <3

HAHAHAHA I WANT TO LAUGH AT THE RIGHT PICTURE!!! CHECK OUT CHERYL'S CHIO FAKE LASHES YOOOO~
Totally fits her well man ^^ Abit wasted cuz it doesn't look natural or else so perfect!! hahahaha!

And not forgetting... our usual GIF :D

Then after playing around, we realised there's another gif app!!!!!!!!!!! OMG IT IS EFFING FUN OMG

1st: We were trying out the app then we realised it's actually MUCH longer than the gif app we usually take :O *gets into shocked mode
2nd: We placed the phone on the topping bar, pressed start &the phone slipped and fell HAHAHAHAH check out my stunned face
3rd: *jumps* but realised it's abit retarded jumping too long. We ended off with a pretty nice pose though :D

NOW CHECK THESE 3 OUT... EPIC TO THE MAXIMUM!!!!
Esp the rain one...

wait for it...

WAIT FOR IT...

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HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH
So cool one omg got rain and disco effects wtf!!!!

Chery and I are definitely a good pair to do all these stupid stuffs man!!! For the raining one.. i suggested using umbrella, and she suggested we should pretend "oh we are caught in the rain" and tadahh, whips out umbrella to the rescue. LOL OR LOL?! Disco one self explanatory.

I still keep giggling to myself whenever I view these gifs!!!!

So shagged from today's work. Yogurt machine decided not to behave today and I wasted too much energy taking the gifs!!

CIAOS!!!
&HAPPY 57 MONTHS <3 so nice to finally hear your voice after a week!!

Mulberry Leverton

2011-12-10T00:31:00.013+08:00

2 months have passed since the incident of Mulberry Leverton. If you have been my twitter follower or been reading my tumblr every now and then, I'm sure this name isn't alien to you. I thought things have pretty much cooled down. But recently someone has been trying to stir shit up again on my formspring, hence I've decided to come clean once and for all. And I also do not wish to drag this matter anymore &hopefully this post would put a closure to everything. Of course i'm sure, avid readers like you guys are curious on how I managed to find out about the thai girl - G. &to G, this should also be an answer to you on how I managed to find out everything.

(warning first this post gonna be wordy with very little pictures cuz I deleted some of the evidences in a fit of anger hahahah)

So here goes~

Everything started out from just a simple FORMSPRING. I always had this person named Mulberry 'smiling' at my questions that I replied on my fs. And most of it, they are questions on BKK. I found it weird initially but didn't give two hoots about it. One day, I finally received a question from Mulberry. It says "You cute :D" and of cuz I replied casually like oh that's sweet, thanks etc. It's quite rare of someone using her own account asking people questions on fs, moreover praising the other person. So I finally clicked on her profile but at that point of time, I didn't pay much attention to it.

Then I received a question from her yet again and it says "Does your bf has a twin cuz he looks like mine". Honestly, it didn't bother me and i actually replied "Nope! Maybe your bf really looks like mine hahaha". Maybe only after... 5 minutes later? Then it dawned on me that THIS IS REALLY SUSPICIOUS. So once again, I clicked on her profile, read through her questions. Okay I must state this that it is very obvious this person asked questions himself/herself and then answer. The main objective? IS TO LET ME READ IT.
The fake identity this person used was a "Model Traveller". I remembered she answering this question and it was something like "I am a model traveller. I'm in London. My bf is in Singapore. We met in Bangkok. We have a special relationship." (picture that in awful broken english).
My thoughts started running wild and like "yea true... P is from sg... yea true... p just went to bkk...."

Then she started adding me on fb. I rejected. She added again. I finally accepted it.

1st October 2011 (Saturday)
I remembered I had my jc class gathering that day. I even gave away my work to meet up my old friends. But I was still early and so I decided to use FACEBOOK. I was browsing my news feed as usual until i saw a PICTURE OF P. AND IT WAS UPLOADED BY MULBERRY LEVERTON. The caption of the picture was "Pete in Thailand"
I was dismayed.

2nd October (Sunday)
'She' started blogging.

FYI, the girl in the picture IS NOT G. Until today, we still can't figure out who's this girl. I mean... this fake identity has LOTS of pictures of this girl. In her fb.. blog.. formspring etc.

3rd October (Monday)
I was refreshing her formspring and to my surprise the account was locked. I refreshed again. Then ALL previous questions were deleted. I refreshed yet again. There was only one new question left:

Obviously, asking himself/herself again and then answering. Can this person even be more bored?!
Oh erm, as you can see. Profile picture is P. He/she actually uploaded 3 pictures of P in Thailand.

Not long after, i received a formspring question in PERFECT ENGLISH saying something along this line like "fyi, pierre went twice not once to bkk. When he was there, he was with G throughout. Don't assume anything when you dont know".
THIS PERSON INDEED SOUNDS LIKE HE/SHE KNOWS ALOT.

I called P if he went ONCE or TWICE. He insisted on ONCE. I believed him. And i was thinking to myself why would he even have the time to go a 2nd time... since after the bkk trip, he started school already.

Still, he wouldn't tell me who was the thai girl he met over there. I guess I inherited some detective genes from my parents (HAHAHA) and I tried to find out who might be the girl. In the end, I guessed that it was G. But I had no evidence to confirm it was indeed her.

4th October (Tuesday)
I swear this person is only active at night.
I received an anonymous email titled "for you". The name of the sender really looked ambiguous (not mulberry leverton) and I was so close to deleting it cuz I thought it was a junk mail. But i was thinking to myself, why isn't this mail filtered straight to my junk mail folder? Curiosity killed the cat and I read the email eventually. There were 11 picture attachments and I was checking the mail using my bb.
I saw the attachments titled 'g', 'gg', 'ggg' 'gggg' u get my drift.
I opened it.... and OMG. IT WAS 11 PICTURES OF THEM IN BKK. I COULD FEEL MY WHOLE BODY WEAKENING. THOUGHTS RUNNING WILD. I didn't know was i hurt? or angry? or..?? But anyway, the pictures confirmed that my guess was right. It is indeed G. (I shall be nice and not upload their pictures)

Of course, I stomped to Pierre's house demanding an explanation. And that's the night he decided to come clean.

Until today, we still do not know who's the person behind Mulberry Leverton since G denied it was her. I guess this person's plan is to make me angry/hurt/hate P and that I would eventually leave him, so that P and G can be together. Guess what? YOUR PLAN BACKFIRED. Too bad. P and I can also roughly guess who's the person. I mean.. who gets to access G's fb pictures?? Must be a friend of hers. Who knows so much about me and P as well as P and G? Who was the one who posted in perfect english on my formspring? Who could actually be the one who wants P to be with G the most?? WHO?!

***
I admit I was in fault as well because at that point of time, I had Joven. P and I drifted apart, I felt really neglected and that gave me a chance to get close to another guy. Initially i thought it was because we were both tied up with school&work. Even when we broke up, he assured me that there's no girl involved. If only he was honest with me about it...

Do you guys still remember that I went to Phuket in July? Yeap... that was actually the FIRST TIME he went to bkk to find G. WE WERE STILL TOGETHER THOUGH ROCKY. Can you imagine how devastated I was when I found out? Just picture yourself in my shoes. And he broke up with me only after that, when i was still in Phuket. I cried like a loser in Jx's arms I swear. I find it really selfish of him to push the entire blame to me when we broke up.

You must be wondering how P got to know G? Well, he has a friend called J. J has a thai girlfriend. G is the gf's goodfriend, and so they all went Zouk together. I reckon you could figure the rest out yourself.

And this is for you J, I'm so utterly disappointed in you. To think I actually treated you like a FRIEND. Who was the one who lent you econs notes for your exams? Who was the one who gave you privileges at frolick? You can even asked me out for drinks? Asking me to bring my frolick friends out while you'll ask bc etc along. And I cannot believe that you can actually attended my birthday party along with your thai girlfriend admist all these. I was SO FOOLISH and STUPID to even confide my problems to you. I must be blind. And i quote you from fb "Thanks S, for the free entertainment you give to us every morning. Your life drama ke ma ma". Yup, thanks to you that i'm having this drama. Thanks to you that P got to know her. Thanks to you that you even supported him of doing so. THANKS SO MUCH.

Even after all these, P and I both forgave each other and we're back together. We are still trying our best to work out those indifferences. But sometimes, I just feel really tired and exasperated, and I feel like giving up. On one hand, I know my parents isn't exactly supportive of me getting back with him after this incident. Even though they don't say it, but I know they don't like it when i'm out with him. I feel so... trapped. On the other hand, I clearly know some of his sec school friends dislike me (J happens to be in this clique fml). This adds on to the burden i already have. It's like... whatever that you do, even if it's right.. they don't like you means dont like you right? I feel like nothing I do will ever make them change their opinions of me. (fuck i'm in tears already)

I even tried giving up this relationship a couple of times. But a relationship is between the both of us, no? P is not even giving up, why should I give up?? But it kinda saddens me that I can no longer join them for suppers &all cuz J would be there. We used to always supper/poker together. Sigh. Some of my friends changed their opinions of P as well after this incident. Some things... are just not going to be the same ever again.

Now, who can understand what I have gone through?

New layout!

2011-12-07T01:53:00.006+08:00

Heyyooo how do you find this 'new' look for the blog??? Ok yah yah I know it's actually not much of a difference hahahaha :p
I wanted a background image (something like my tumblr) but the image JUST WOULDN'T FIT PROPERLY. A clear picture would have a file size that is too big to be uploaded into blogger. If I resized it, then the image is too small for my liking to be a background. How screwed is blogger you tell me?! Tumblr is so much easier in this aspect. And I removed the blog banner as well cuz I'm pretty sick of the picture (it's been slightly more than a year) but but but... I can't find any suitable picture to replace it. SAD MUCH. *pouts again. Hahaha so I resorted to just having my name. I removed one of the nuffnang ad banner as well cuz I think it can get pretty messy. Changed the side bar a little as well.

I've been on a change-blog-layout-mode-quest recently hahaha that's why the sudden change in both my domain and tumblr!! Pretty satisfied now, ahhhhh~ :D

Now all I have to do is to wait for my dear P to be back to help me shoot some pretty pictures for the banner hehehehee.

OH OH OH!!!!!
And btw if you haven't realised.... WICKED IS NOW SHOWING IN SINGAPORE AS WELL.

This is a freaking NICE^infinity musical!! Must go catch it!! Hopefully the standard is the same as the one I caught in London!! Highly recommended!!!

Haha amazingly I can still remember the tune of the songs &part of the lyrics!!

Wellz, P hasn't really been contacting me much cuz THERE IS NO 3G IN CEBU. CAN U BELIEVE IT?!
I CANNOT.
So he's pretty much uncontactable. :( I'll only get his whatsapp like once in every 20hours when he's back in the hotel with wifi, even so, the wifi connection sucks. AND HE PROMISED TO SKYPE WITH ME EVERY NIGHT BEFORE HE LEFT. This is the 2nd night already and we haven't skyped at all. Urghhh..

Ok I wonder if he has been writing his diary diligently. Tsk~

DAY 1

2011-12-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

So yes... P has finally left for the Philippines for 17days. T_T
Hope everything would go well for him over there and I can't wait for him to be back!! Cuz that means Christmas is just around the corner.... KEKEKEKE.

Taken at his place before leaving for the airport~ <3

ohyay... and I did a card for him again!! As usual, ikr. But a lil different this time round, cuz I designed a mini-diary for him to pen down his thoughts/daily stuffs he did so that he could show it to me when he's back! :D
Awesome idea or what!!
Not really pretty-pretty cuz I rushed this out last minute :( but not that bad la k

she's going to miss pp

ok YES I KNOW I'VE BEEN TAKING TOO MANY GIF RECENTLY hahaha. But it's so fun &addictive!

16 MORE DAYS LET'S GOOOO!!

Frolickkkkkk

2011-12-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA FUN AT WORK!!!!

Javier's Rotisserie &Salad Bar

2011-12-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

OFTD: Top is from Bkk platinum and I MUST SAY THE PRICE... 50baht = $2 CAN U BELIEVE IT HAHA #bargainqueen
Skirt-HVV; clutch-ohsofickle; belt-London's Primark

Love this leather skirt!!! But it's too big for me hence the need for the belt :(

Met P in town for movie and dinz!

We decided on Javier's which is at Cine... we were tooooo lazy to walk anywhere else after buying movie tickets~

The concept is pretty cool! You can order your main dish and add on $3.90 for unlimited sides for one round... just stack everything on your plate till it's full!! P and I should have just be like those kiasu Singaporeans and buy one to share!! That's what everybody did over there... like 2-3people sharing a plate?? But P and I bought ONE EACH. Hahaha we were freaking full after that all we felt like doing is to sleep.

This is my plate and I ordered their signature dish - Roast Chicken with Mushroom Sauce!

P ordered the Pork ribs i think!

I am so amazed at how some people are able to stack their food into literally A MOUNTAIN. Looks scary and intimidating lol.

Snapped a shot of Orchard Road Christmas decorations. Don't really like it cuz I prefer it gold and silverish. But it's blue this year. Mehhhh~

SIGH I'M GONNA MISS P SO MUCH CUZ HE'LL BE AWAY FOR 17DAYS. :'(

Shall just keep myself busy with school work and family!! Ohyayyy!! I just got my very first tuition assignment to tutor P1 and P2 english & mathematics!! Starting my 1st lesson on Monday!
Come wish me some luck ;)

HELLO DECEMBER!!!!!

2011-12-02T02:08:00.001+08:00

CAN U BELIEVE IT?!! We're already into the last month of the year?!?! I didn't even realise it until I woke up this morning, did my usual routine which is to reach out for my phone.. checked for messages/emails &all, then checked my twitter and my whole timeline was flooded with 'December' tweets~ hahahah I must have been living in my lalaland for too long. Back to the point, TIME FLIES REALLY FAST.
AND I AM AGEING. HOWWWWW!!

OFTD! Only 150baht = $6 hahah i bargain and whine like mad to the guy for this price LOL.
I only bought 1 colour which I regret now, should have bought all 4 colours damn it!!! It's so comfy and easy to slip on for lazy school days! P likes this dress as well. For some reason, he likes me being in dresses > shorts.

Anyway, I've been meeting the bf up EVERY SINGLE DAY since MONDAY. Love it!!! I'm gonna be so lonely once he leaves for Philippines this Sunday :( *cries

& people say HI TO KOBBY!!!!
*waves* it's a 5month old puppy SO ADORABLE. Bb says i'm always falling into Kobby's trap of giving pitiful eyes so that I would let it out of it's cage hahahaha BUT IT'S SO KAWAII HOW TO SAY NOOOO TO THE DOG!!

Been walking the dog together with P for the past few days as well.
This dog is attracted to anything HOTPINK!!! My fav colour!! Hehe so damn cute and it barks at anything black &particularly bikes, bicycles, pram.... You get my drift.

We've been watching 'Dog Whisperer' as well to learn some techniques. Haha. P would always be like "Stay calm, shoulders upright"... "Sssssssshhh" If u watched this show before, you'll get what i mean!!

SMELLY KOBBY~

Then accompanied P for his haircut at Twister!

'Before' Pictures!

'After' pictures.
It's called the "Undercut hairstyle" (am i right???)

But looks quite ahbeng to me. Hahaha he says i'm the ahlian. Together we are the ahlianbengzz couple yo.

Random picture taken in school the other day:

everything Hello Kitty lol! Pencil case; Itouch; Blackberry &my new calculator!!
If you're wondering why am i using such a calculator for school purposes, that's just because UOL has some weird rules that we CANNOT use SCIENTIFIC CALCULATORS for examinations. Wtf right I KNOW.

Ok bye!!!

ALONE IN BANGKOK

2011-11-29T01:15:00.006+08:00

As the title suggest, I went overseas alone again!! (hahaha ikr). But I wasn't literally alone-alone cuz I had my friend there. But yup I flew alone, stayed alone and sometimes even... eat alone when my friend isn't free to accompany me :( That's what I HATE MOST about travelling alone. Second to that would be paying everything myself cuz I can't split the costs for hotel &cab :'( mehhh

At the budget terminal waiting for boarding!

Camwhore on the plane using my itouch! Love love love the apps hehehee

Fell asleep after camwhoring and about 2hours later, I'm already in BKK!!!
But omg the customs was really a pain-in-the-ass! Took me almost an hour to clear it cuz the queue was so friggggggggiinnnnn looooooooong. Damn annoyed!!

On the half green half yellow cab. Haha i remembered whining on twitter that it is not the hotpink cab. Sad much~

For the curious ones, I stayed at Banyan Tree Bangkok this time round!
I know I answered on my fs that I will be staying at Ecotel. But that was the initial plan!!! Chan (my good pri school friend who's a thai!) suggested staying at Banyan instead since i'm alone, furthermore i'm a girl, ecotel doesnt seemed safe. And he'll feel more at ease that i'm staying in a 5stars hotel lol

welcome drink when I arrived!

That's Chan! Haven't seen him for almost 5years after he left Singapore for Australia!

Couldn't check in yet so i left my luaggage in the hotel and OFF TO PLATINUMMM!!!

WHOOPPP WHACK!!

Took very little pictures cuz it's just all about shopping!!!

My fav tuktuk rides which I didn't have the chance to take this time round. Cuz i think one girl take alone abit scary and dangerous??? Cabbing is always the safest choice!! + it's cheap + there's aircon!!

Came back to the hotel to realise Chan actually prepared this room for me...

Corridor!

Door to the room!

OMG CAN U BELIEVE IT?!
I STAYED ALONE IN SUCH A FREAKING HUGE ROOM ALL ALONE!!! =.=

And i took these pictures using my itouch 360 panorama photo effect! SO KOOLZ.

Living room!

Bedroom!

Toilet!

The toilet is wtf it is damn huge!!!! ~.~ There's a seat inside the shower-room and you can actually do sauna yknow!! Haha i was exploring all the buttons and I saw this "Mr Steam" button, pressed it and the next thing.. steam came out all over. Cool max out

DAY 1 LOOTS!!

Showered out!

Dressed up and went to party! Chan left even before we reached the club cuz he was too tired, so I joined his friends! hahaha

Street side food nomznomz!

We went to Wine Bridge initially but it was MAD PACKED. *picture phuture's scenario*
So we headed to RCA and that's the only place i know for clubbing in bkk!! Situation x2 bad. We didn't manage to see the human queue but the car queue was already good enough to tell you it's mad packed as well.
So the friends suggested Escobar and off we went!! :D (oh haha i was reading her blog and omg can u believe it!! She was at escobar the night i was there as well. HAHAHA omg lucky or what that we did not bump into each other!!)

so cute lol (I think he looks abit like P's friend - Chonghu lol)

Supper after partying!

Zombified immediately when i reached the hotel cuz i only slept 3hours the previous night *pouts*

AND I WOKE UP TOO LATE FOR MY BUFFET BREAKFAST :'( CRIES
But staying in a suite has its perks!! I get to go to the club lounge where you'll be served food all day long! Went up at 12pm to see what they have for me...

desserts!!

Everything in this menu is complimentary!! but i ordered only green curry CAN U KILL ME RIGHT NOW!! SHOULD HAVE ORDERED CRISP PRAWN SPRING ROLL as well cuz i heard it's great! :(

After lunch, waited for Chan to pick me up to go to Chatuchak Market!

EH OMG THIS IS MY FAVOURITE DESSERT!!
I had it last year as well when i was there with P. Awww those times~~

And i was telling Chan i should open one in SG. hahaha. #businessidea

Right pic: Attempting to show my cute ribbon pin but seems like the attention here is more on my BLACK ROOTS vs BROWN PONYTAIL LOL

This picture reminds me of someone-feeding-someone-coconut-icecream. *bitch mode turns on again* CRAP!!!
ok chill

Sadly, chatuchak was a disappointment this time round!! Only got myself a dress &a belt, plus a pair of berms for P. WTH RIGHT I KNOW. :(

Went back to the hotel to change and wash up, then Chan brought me over to his house where his mum cooked dinz for us! Honestly, i was expecting more of a taitai kind of mum since he's pretty rich but surprisingly she's so down-to-earth!

And his house is so pretty omg. Totally got the resort kind of feeling yknow! And he has a walk-in wardrobe. I greatly need that please thanks.

Then to Patpong!

Massage!

Went up to Banyan's rooftop 62th level - Vertigo Moon Bar!

Girl on the right is Nat, guy on the left i forgot his name haha.
Anw, Nat is another super duper rich girl (omg can!!!) her family actually owns the Mango Tree restaurant chains. I've seen one in London as well.. so cool uh. But she's so nice and down-to-earth as well. Maybe cuz I've always pictured rich girls as princess and spoilt heh.

Ambience really nice with live jazz band!

And i got this cute lil thing from Patpong!

Guess what is it?? MIRROR????

NOOOO!!!!

It's a KAWAII CALCULATOR!!!!!! only 250baht = $10. So cheap already i also lazy to bargain for it to be cheaper lol!!!

At the hotel gonna go for my shower + sauna!

AND THE NEXT DAY I FINALLY WOKE UP IN TIME FOR BUFFET BREAKFAST LOL

#achievement!

Then to MBK for bb housings!

I really love LOVE LOVE this housing!! So sweet la omg and in my favourite colour PINK!!
BUT it's only available for this bb model :( *heart shattered

SO MANY COLOURS TO CHOOSE FROM I SPENT ALMOST AN HOUR THERE OKAY LOL

Yay new bb housing!! So sweet right, different from my previous candypop phone theme hahaha

did one last massage before leaving!

SUPER TASTY FRIED CHICKEN!! When i was queuing for my turn, most people before me took AT LEAST 10 chicken and i was like "siao man take so many", so i bought 4 which is only 24baht = $1. TOTALLY REGRET. Shld have bought 10 to nomz in the cab to the airport!!! YUMZ.
I'm a street side food fan lol

on the cab!

airport &plane with my half-dead face cuz i was really REALLY SICK. Can tell right.. my face so damn puffy!! :(

Flu, cough, headache, muscle-ache all at one shot. The sinus blocked my ears, and it hurt like a bitch during landing that i had tears all over my eyes :'(
Had to even give school a miss today cuz i'm just too weak. URGH~

Anw, BKK LOOTS FOR THE 3 DAYS!

As u can seee.... significantly lesser than my previous bkk loots, or even comparably lesser than my London loots :( why huh. Can't seemed to find anything that i like. CANT EVEN FIND MY FAV DURIAN/JACKFRUIT CHIPS LA really want my life man. And dad was being such a joker. He said "the flood washed everything away already" HAHAHA.

And yes you're right, no TOMYUM SOUP PICTURES AS WELL. Ikr, didn't manage to eat it. MEGA SAD :( Oh and if you're wondering why i didn't meet Sue up, she's in the States working now!

Now I can't wait for my next holiday! ;)

Gooooooooodbye!

2011-11-25T03:27:00.001+08:00

I'm so over this shit as well seriously cuz there's no point harping onto the past.
Bangkok in a few hours time. Retail therapy much needed~

See ya!

#timetodestress

HAHAHAHAHAA

2011-11-23T20:42:00.004+08:00

Edit// Actually... now I feel bad. Omg. I can never ever really be a bad person cuz i'm bloody soft hearted. And that's why I always forgive easily. Just happened to stumble on her blog today and read one of her post. Now I feel sorry for her as well. Honestly, you're right that the both of us are victims of this situation. You're right that P only cares about his face and his reputation. This, I totally agree. BUT OHWELLZ.

--
Joke!! Right after venting out on my twitter and my tumblr, she officially BLOCKED ME ON FB.. I think la uh. Hahaha ohwell, just as nice. Not able to view any shit from her = I won't have any reasons to be annoyed anymore. Seems like a good deal afterall. Heh.

Going for my jog now cuz P just said i'm getting fat a few days ago. boohoo~

Pictures from the Itouch!

2011-11-21T01:21:00.004+08:00

I'm really guilty to say that I've been spending the past 2days or so, searching for the best photography/editing apps, then exploring &figuring them out. Hehehe SO FUN. Not that I got my itouch recently (that's why the sudden hype) but I don't recall having seeing so many cool apps before!! Everyone was only using 'Instagram' then, right?? So my itouch was just practically for music and some stupid games like Bejeweled/Fruit Ninja lol lol!!
Still kinda amazed at all these cool features and functions. Makes me so wanna get an Iphone now, what's more it's friggin 8 MEGAPIXELS for the new iphone4S = AWESOME PICTURES!!! I CAN CAMWHORE LIKE MAD.

BUT I REALLY LIKE MY BB KEYPADS ;( Why can't bb9900 have awesome apps like the iphone?? Or why can't the iphone have a keypad?? We can't have the best of both worlds, can we? *pouts*

This was yesterday at B's place and I was bored. heh

Dinner at Ikea! Pictures quite mehhhh~ so pixelated! :(

Today!

lunch!

And I shall end off this post with 3 cutesy gif images!!! HEHEHEHEE ^,^

Ps: All effects are edited using the different apps I downloaded!

I LOVE IT!!

Life

2011-11-19T02:44:00.032+08:00

At the rate Frolick's hiring so many new girls, it no longer feels like a home anymore :( Sigh i really missed those old days~

Work aside, I AM SUPPOSED TO BE IN BKK NOW GRRRRR!! But ohwell, i postponed my flight (yet again) a few days ago! Yipeee hopefully the flood gonna recede soon! Can anyone tell me if Chatuchak is open again? Heard it was closed the past few weeks due to the flood.. ohman, platinum + chatuchak are like my die-must-go places when i'm there!! Can't afford to miss ANY ONE OF THEM OUT :(

Lesson tmr ON A SATURDAY. That sucks. :(

I'm in love with my 'imaginary perfect boyfriend'.

2011-11-18T14:56:00.002+08:00

Sogurt

2011-11-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

School was ultra mega horrible yesterday - Macroecons from 12-3pm and then Corporate Finance from 7-10pm. 2 of my worst subjects on the same day ~.~

Thankfully, we had a 4hours break in between, so we went to Sogurt to relieve some stress :D

I had the red velvet, lychee and original flavour, topped up with my all time fav oreo & mochis!!!
Spells Y-U-M-M-Y!!!
Red Mango's original flavour is still the best imo hehehe :D

Pardon my pale face cuz I was all in tears before that :(

AND MY ALL TIME FAV APPS ^.^

so kawaii *.* hehehe

- - -

On a side note, I really find guys carrying girl's handbag annoyingly disgusting. Especially when the dude is macho&all and then mehhhhh~ carrying a pink handbag??? Do y'guys think the same way as i do? If the girl is holding onto a freaking big bulky heavy bag and the guy offered to help, then i think it's alright. But c'mon.. most of the times it's like.. a mini handbag/clutch?? How heavy can it get srsly!??! Hey girls are you that weak not to carry it yourself? Or hey guys don't you find it gay carrying a handbag? I'm not pinpointing anyone, but this is just a personal opinion of mine ;)

It's near 10pm and i'm feeling so sleepy and headache-ish.

It's time for bed, goodnight people!!

6th Sense

2011-11-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

I always feel that my 6th sense is right. Honestly, it has always been quite accurate. Today while I was at Paya Lebar station waiting for the train, i just had that sudden feeling that i'm gonna bumped into you. But i was thinking to myself... what are the odds of seeing you? Of all timings and of all cabins.. the probabillity is pretty low BUT in the end, we really did bump into each other.
Like what you said, this is probably fate. I had so many things that i wanted to say to you, yet i'm too exhausted to say any. Maybe the words u said this afternoon was too much for me to handle. Or maybe i would have never ever thought that that's your opinion on me. You may be sorry about it, but you can't take back the words said nor can you remove the hurt that is already inflicted on me.

I'm proud of my heart. It's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken, but somehow.. it still works. Perhaps that is why i feel so immuned to everything that's happening.

And all i want to do now is to hug someone tightly and CRY OUT LOUD.
Sigh :'(

The Show Goes On

2011-11-15T00:48:00.003+08:00

MY COMPUTER IS FINALLY ALIVE AGAIN!!!
Although I very much hate the new Windows, especially the Windows Photo Viewer which is totally crappy (the fact that I can't rearrange my pictures in the same album anymore h8 h8 h8!!!!!) BUT THE INTERNET IS SO FRIGGIN FAST NOW, I'M SO HAPPY *jumps*
The newly installed photoshop feels kind of weird as well. But nvm, gone are the days of slow internet (It is actually not THAT slow, but I have almost 0% patience of waiting for a page to load lol) and the fear of the computer dying on me.

Ps: Tiger Airways better pick up my damn call tmr before... I go crazy and start roaring like a #Leo.

And it's the 10th again..

2011-11-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 56 MONTHS DEAR BOY

*hearts*

Notting Hill Carnival 2011 in London!

2011-11-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

Finally MY LAST ENTRY ON LONDON!!

I spent my Monday of my 2nd last week in London at the Notting Hill Carnival, which is the largest festival of its kind in Europe! It's a Caribbean festival so it's all bright and colourful :D

Lots of vendors selling these whistles and we bought to join in the crowd!

Cuz of this carnival, several train stations were closed due to the crowd. So we had to alight a few stops earlier and walked all the way to the venue~ Saw so many cool young hip teens all ready to rock this carnival on the train. They appeared in all sorts of face paints and weird hairdos hahaha!

left pic: YES CHECK OUT SHE'S BARING HER BUTT, really win.
Right pic: YES CHECK OUT THE O.o CROWD! Mad packed!!

Caribbean music was blasted all over so the performers were all shakingzshakinnnshakeezz~

THE POLICE TOOOOO CUTE!!!!

~.~ SO MANY PEOPLE

After the carnival, you'll find alot of stalls selling caribbean food and beers!! Movable trucks would be there as well with all the loudspeakers etc, and they started blasting r&b music while the people would drink and party at goddamn 2PM CAN U BELIEVE IT?! People getting drunk and wasted at 2pm will kinda be weird in singapore, but it's ohso-normal in london!

Saw 100000000000 people drinking this local beer and i just had to try it and shared it with my Sis! I'm not a big fan of beer, but this is surprisingly GOOD. Thumbs up! Keeps my stomach warm as well on sucha chilly weather hehee

Caribbean food YUMMYYYYYY!!!!!! I WANT SOME NOW NAH

everyone would just sit along the street, eating, drinking, chatting....

YEA!

People partying at BROAD DAYLIGHT haha unbelievable!!

After the carnival, i brought Laura & Siling to Hummingbirds for the awesome red velvet cuppies!

Brought some back for my sis as well who's slogging her guts out at home :(

***

And this is my very last day in London!

I came to London alone, and went back all alone as well cuz Sis's just too busy to send me off :( But this time round i'm so much smarter! Decided to take the coach to the airport instead of lugging the luggages again up&down the train stations ;)

I remembered my flight was delay by almost 2hours (CRAP!!!), i was so bored i decided to go shopping inside the airport! AND I SPOTTED HELLOKITTY!!! Wanted to buy the kitty holding onto the UK flag one but the price just doesn't justify why i should even buy it~ wellzwellz.

Sometimes, i think i'm really independent. And i learnt so much more about myself after this trip. One thing for sure - i'm not direction idiot anymore HAHA. So many times i had to navigate myself using maps around ALONE. And I actually cannot believe i kind of went travelling 'alone', 2weeks with the folks, and another 2weeks almost alone, wandering and exploring the different streets in London...
Really got to thank my parents for bringing up me as an independent girl. Hey yoz at the age of 9 i started having ownership of my house keys, i took the public bus to school daily from Tampines to Bedok. So I guess i pretty much grew up without really having the need to be reliant on someone else to takecare of me.

Nuff' said, I MISS LONDON.
I still occasionally picture myself walking down the streets at Victoria and Oxford Street :(

The long weekend

2011-11-08T15:23:00.005+08:00

Really sorry for the hiatus the past few days! Been really really busy and what's more, I accidentally left my camera at B's house the other day so I didn't have any pictures to work on :(

This was on Friday when we had our dinner at Hatched!

Hatched is an egg-inspired all day breakfast cafe!

Cute menu!

***

And i had work at frolick, as usual...

Hee Vanneza tying my hair for me :D

HAHAH OUR FACES

Apple products are too cool!! All the photography apps (Y)

Then on Sunday night, Sis and I attempted to bake cupcakes... at 12am!! Hahaha what a timing right! tsk

Please ignore the empty hole there cuz we couldn't resist the temptation of trying the chocolate cupcake..

Hahaha it was definitely so fun playing around... we ended up laughing till we teared cuz the cupcake tasted weird + JUST LOOK AT OUR ICING DECORATIONS!! Hahhaha right bottom angrybird looks deformed. Angry bird pig looks like Shrek to me. AND CHECK OUT THE HELLOKITTY YOZZ.. hahaha totally looks like a dog to me lol!!!
Stayed over at Sis's house that night and ended up with a flu when i woke up the next morning... and i'm still having flu till now :(

Well then my whole of Monday was just spent studying together with the boy. :D and eating. And looking through old pictures of ours and go ~.~ HAHAHA. not forgetting re-watching some videos of us. Totally cracked us up.

So that's how i spent my long weekend thanks to the Hari Raya Haji Holidays!

Now it's time to hit the books again~~

Sorry for the long hiatus!

2011-11-07T23:34:00.004+08:00

http://www.shelteringshield.com/

#somepictuturesofme, will be blogging again real soon!! ;)

Friend?

2011-11-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

Maybe my mum is right. I trust in people too easily. All along, I treated you like a good friend. I told you my troubles. I told you how i felt. I told you almost everything that happened right from the start. I thought you were genuinely concerned. Maybe you are.. I'm not quite sure about that. But all i can say is that, i'm disappointed in you. And it's hard for me to even treat you like a normal friend now..

If you're feeling guilty after reading this, then most probably, you're the one i'm talking about.

One day, I'll really punch you hard in the face.

2011-11-01T23:44:00.002+08:00

And do you really think that we are fools? A good friend helps, not sabotages.

Love You Long Time

2011-11-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

Lunch today! Finally met up with the boy after what seemed eons.
I don't get to see P as often now as compared to the past. Frankly speaking, it is quite torturing, &it makes me moody and upset sometimes. Then it will be followed by my usual naggings of him neglecting me. But everything seems to fall back into place when we see each other. :)

Can't wait to see u again xoxo

@#$%^&*(

2011-11-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

How annoying can it get... the person i quite hate is using the same picture editing software that i'm using.
Not that i'm selfish &don't want people to use the same editing program as mine, but it irritates me to see that person pics' layout like mine GRRRRR

HALLOWEEN 2011

2011-10-30T21:25:00.005+08:00

Happy Halloween everyone!! Imma hula girl this year, while sis's a hot policewoman!! *woots*

Followed sis to her friend's hotel room just opposite Zouk to dressup &to wait for my friends to reach!
Got a shock when i reached the room cuz there were like already 20 people inside the room, all dressed up &ready to hit Zouk!

MY FIRST HALLOWEEN WITH DAJIE!

I know mine's abit revealing BUT BUT BUT.... it's a hawaiian girl outfit and halloween only happens ONCE a year.

spiderwoman best

all the girls!!

and the guys + spiderwoman hahaha

Dajie drew the rainbow for me, so cutee! :D

Exiting the room, ready to head to Zouk!

with Eileen mygod this is the only shot i took with her :'(

omg this group damn cute, but i reckon they must be sweating and suffocating alot!

bumped into Chelsea at the bridge!

Louie's like "it's 10bux each!"

HHAHA wilson tryna be Edward Cullen!

This iphone/fb thingy is damn cute toooooooooo!
I was quite sad though cuz i didnt manage to take pictures with alot of people... i remember seeing the mahjong tiles, smurfs, spartans, mario and whatnot. SIGHHHH

Sucha fun and chaotic night! But i have 1000bruises on me now :(
#youareonlyyoungonce so.. live your life!

2011-10-29T18:11:00.001+08:00

IT'S HALLOWEEN TONIGHT!!!!
Gonna be so exciting! Well i was kind of disappointed though cuz a few friends pangseh :(, but i'm still hitting Zouk nonetheless! So catch y'all there!!!!! Me shall do some hula dance later on~ hahaha just jokingggg :D

Dajie's 29th Birthday!

2011-10-28T02:14:00.005+08:00

Dinner at a Peranakan Restaurant chosen by Sis!

Pretty Sis & my lovely parents ^^

Well, if only Erjie is here with us! :(
Erjie if u're reading this, WE MISS U ALOTALOTALOT!!!!!! *hearttttz*

Nomz~

So... do i look more like my mom or dad?? HAHAHA. I kind of don't see any resemblance mehhh~

RedRuby & Chendol!!

Omg i can't wait to have my red ruby dessert at Chatuchak market seriously... it's the dope i swear.
But i just dont understand why i can't find it on my previous trips with steph/baby yet my sister always managed to find the stall!!! Life is unfair, i'm super bad in directions. Nuff' said :(

And i ordered pretty lil' cupcakes from Shibertys AGAIN!!!!
This time round, i ordered chocolate with chocolate frosting cuz my sis is a big fan of chocolate, and also my birthday cake flavour (cuz i really really REALLY missed the taste), Vanilla with Butterscotch frosting :D

ANGRY BIRDS CUPCAKES DESIGN.... cuz she's a mega big fan of angry birds.
I swear i have never ever seen a bigger fan than her in my circle of friends hahahaha~

Chocolate Romance cupcakes!

Headed to Sis's place cuz she insisted of blowing candles and making a wish~ hahaha 29 already still so kiddish geesh! (Shibertys doesn't provide candles hence we can't blow it in the restaurant!)

SO CUTE

And Jack is so cute!!! He literally handmade a bouquet of flowers with angry birds soft toys in it!!!!
Creativity +10points hahaha!

One chocolate romance cupcake missing cuz we devoured it inside the restaurant already hehehe

Told chu my sis's a BIG FAN of ANGRY BIRDS.
I still don't quite get it when she's so crazy over this game ~.~

KAWAII!! ^.^

And once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAJIE!!!!!
*lots of love&kisses* <3

Happy Deepavali!

2011-10-26T23:03:00.053+08:00

This week is awesome cuz of the public holiday today, I only have 2 days of school!! Whooz! (wait.. must i go on on how i hate travelling to school :[ )

Met P last night and I met him today as well!! :D Awesomexzx.

Check out my black roots... hahaha they are srsly annoying the shit outta me! Really feel like utilising my birthday prezzie from jxbby to go dye my hair!! Ok no wait, shouldn't dye anymore cuz i dyed twice this year already. My hair is failing me :(

Ajisen for dinner cuz the boy wanted it~

Qixuan, Vivien and I were outside the lecture room yesterday while waiting for ours to start and it's quite cute to see our coincidentally-same-brand-of-bags all sitting side by side hahah! Yay we the longchamp gang!! ^^

Honestly quite pissed off when i saw her pic a few days ago. Heh "trying to be like... haha" u meant.. ME? Everyone knows i love doing this pose, ohplease. >:(

Frolickxzx

2011-10-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

Life has nothing to offer me right now. School &work are just draining all the energy in me :(

Steph's Navajo 21st!

2011-10-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hi babies I'm back to update my ohsoboring life :( Other than school, work and whatnot, I attended Steph's 21st party yesterday!! YES LIKKA FINALLY SHE'S 21 TOO HEHEHEHE

Yup, and doing what girls are best at before leaving home... Camwhore!

Sometimes i really love iphones for all these amazing photography applications, which of cuz, my bb doesn't offer :( But.. NOPE. ME STILL A LOYAL BB USER hehee. And i'll stick to this perfect combi for the time being too... bb &my itouch4! awwz

Met Cass&Yz to head to The Fullerton Hotel together!

us in the toilet tryin' to fix the headband up!

I kept nomming the food hehehee

Both are Joel. Both so freaking TALL.

Okay last pic of the day before heading home!

Hope you had a blast Steph!!!

Hey it's already mid-week!

2011-10-19T23:34:00.001+08:00

Had audition today!! *gasp* hahaha Christina was after me so we had a short chat while waiting for our turn!
We were both in uber bright colours coincidentally! :O

The audition went o-k-a-y other than for the fact that i was shivering most of the time (think... cold + nervous) haha the experience was great though i don't pin much hopes of getting in cuz my Q&A kind of suck :(

Then i met P for dinz @ Ah Loy Thai!
I miss thai food alot haha although i have resentment for anything that's related to Thai now ~.~

It's already the 3rd week, or is it the 4th week (??) into school and there's so much to do now even though i still seemed to be slacking my way through... Tutorials, assignments are stacking up, so TIME TO BUCK UP SHENNY YANG!!! Just had a quiz for Econs today and i was pretty ^^ that i got all correct, thumbs up for no careless mistakes! Urgh i remember the days when careless mistakes kill.. Wellz, can't wait for the weekend!! :D

Goodnight folks!

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2011-10-18T00:47:00.001+08:00

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When there's too much food

2011-10-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

Met P last night for supper at Changi V! Damn sinful :( I can feel myself expanding sideways alreadyyy :'(

And I met Joel today for dinner + shopping for Steph's prezzie!!! Guys will always be guys huh.. always can't decide on what to get for girls! tsk~
Can't wait for her 21st birthday party!!! hiakkk ^^

We ate at Billy Bombers and the milkshakes there are the dope!!! And anw... as u can see.. sinful food AGAIN :(

Since scape is just beside cine, i popped by Red Mango for yogurt again! (!!!!) pui ttm~

Hokayz now it's time to starve myself for the next 4days!!! Actually i doubt i will slim down within 3-4days but ohwell, at least i'll try ;)

Been bbm-ing the whole night with my Erjie who's in London currently, & also whatsapp-ing my Dajie who now stays a few blocks away from me!
And my dearest Dajie is damn funny can... i was asking her where's my halloween outfit and see what she replied:

hehe opps i sort of revealed what i'm gon' dressed up as this year! :p
ARE U EXCITED FOR HALLOWEEN?? Share with me what you gon' be dressed as! :D

If I disappear one day, would you look for me with all your might?

2011-10-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

Aren't you supposed to be the one proving to me that you're worth the risk? Then why do i feel like at the end of the day, i'm still the one trying? Yes i know, studies are your top priority now. But do you know how i feel - that i'm the LAST on your list. Maybe we just can't work things out the way i want and the way you want it to be. Would it be easier to let go now and hurt less, or should we still give it another go?

Cuz right now, i'm confused.
I don't even know how to answer to my family/friends when they asked me how things are going between us.. cuz honestly, do you think you've put in the effort in trying to make this whole situation better?

Behind the Scene

2011-10-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

Monday was a great start to the week cuz msm lesson was cancelled!! *jumps* Not that i hate school, but i really hate travelling down to school (journey to the west~) + i really hate squeezing in the train/bus with the morning crowd too :(

Well, I still got up pretty early considering i slept at 4am on Sunday night to do a shoot for Sheltering Shield! Stay tuned for their new collection!! :D

Hope the pictures gon' turn out fine!!!

Then it was impromptu decision to crash Jan's lecture in NUS! Pretty cool, their lectures are only 1.5hrs! Compared to mine which is a damn 3hrs long lecture...... And omg the food there is really cheap!! Yong Tau Foo for only $2.25! Now i really think food in SIM are heavily overpriced.

After the lecture, we headed to town for dinner!!!

If you happened to be in Dhoby Ghaut area and have serious cravings for cheap & authentic Korean food, you MUST try Kim Dae Mun Korean Cuisine at the Concorde Hotel's food court! My favourite of all would be the potato pancake!!! I have serious cravings for it now :(
After dinz, i had yogurt from Red Mango! Got the Yogurt Muesli & it's super duper worth it! I think it's 5bux for original yogurt + 2 dry toppings + 1 fruit topping! Spells AWESOME~

Met Christina on tues to attend the talk together on transferring to study in the UK. Now our hopes are dashed... it's freaking $40k to study there for 9months :'( ohwell.. so now we are aiming for the summer exchange in LSE instead!

Then we had yogurt from a new branch in Clementi Mall and it has the same concept as like sogurt/swirl art etc. All i can say it's damnnnn ex (!!!!) and it's not super fantastic!
Need to watch my diet already, been eating SO MUCH recently and have major sweet tooth cravings for like... CUPCAKES!!!

Okay ciaos, frolick tmr!

Snaps

2011-10-12T03:12:00.000+08:00

21 Facts About Me

2011-10-10T23:18:00.006+08:00

I forgive easily BUT I do not forget.
I love receiving random sweet messages :)
I love being clean/neat/tidy (my room is just an exception)
I have 2 wardrobes, 1 shelf, 3 ikea cloth boxes, 1 luggage & 1 standing rack to house all my clothes. (But clothes still never seemed to be enough urghhh)
My favourite number is 7.
Surprisingly, my room isn't pink in colour O.o
I always buy pretty bras on impulse then realised they're actually not really comfortable *chucks one side*
I have big feet, local size 39. (don't judge!!!!!)
I'm a UK size 8. (aiming to be UK6 go go go me!!) *pokes dream, it'll never come true~
People always assumed i'm fierce/unfriendly/dao. Fact is, i'm really friendly and talkative.
I'm not a BITCH. Period.
Majoring in Banking and Finance now in University.
I keep piggybank!!!!! *drops $1 a day kekeke
I love Red Mango Original Yogurt!!!!!
I don't party when school is on. (events/birthdays are also exceptions)
I throw random tantrums/get into bad mood quite easily. But i'm also really truly apologetic for it when i'm back to my normal state. :(
I always can't decide if i look best in bangs or side fringe. Or perhaps, no fringe. Likewise, black/brown/red hair? Long/medium/short hair? Straight/natural/curl? Life is stress.
There's a sign on my room door that says "Princess Shenny's Room". I made it in Las Vegas and it is baby pink in colour. *bimbooo*
I love cupcakes.
I fart. Yes, I do. (HAHAHAHAA)
I like licking P's nose and watch how he suffers *evil grins*

Hope you all got to know me a little more :D Now it's back to the books. My life last week was one of a rollercoaster ride, i practically couldn't concentrate at all I ended up missing out so much in terms of my schoolwork. Lots to catch up on. Lots of assignments/tutorials to do. :(

Happy 55th :)

xoxo

#HATERS101

2011-10-10T03:25:00.000+08:00

Yup i know i may not have the best of character. I know my flaws. But i hope y'all would change your opinions of me. I hate myself as well for throwing random tantrums like this, or some would say, my insensitivesness. That i apologised. But i guess that's just... me & my character. I just don't want you guys to be part of a reason why it's hindering us to be back together. :( I'm also working on improving myself too and to change for the better. Sigh, i'll just need to try to be nicer from now on.

My life suckxzx.

Yzbby & Val's Birthday!

2011-10-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

3 of us in a Mercedes Benz SLK (Y)

***

I'm too lazy for words so let the pictures do the talking.

And oh, i'm now stuck in the middle of deciding if i should continue having bangs or.. side fringe???
I'M SO FICKLE MINDED.

If it's meant to be, it will be

2011-10-08T01:33:00.001+08:00

Impromptu decision to meet Steph up on Wed cuz i was feeling really down, i just needed someone to be there for me, listen to my rantings &give me some advice. Thanks bestie for being there, luvluv :) Oh, and we bumped into Ying on the way!

And i met P a few days ago for lunch~

We gon' tide this through together somehow, alright?

2011-10-07T02:01:00.002+08:00

My 21st Birthday Party!

2011-10-06T23:46:00.007+08:00

Sad things aside, time for some happy moments! I know this is a super duper overdued post, and i really wanted to blog about it before leaving for London.
But i couldn't get the pictures on time... so yeap here it goes~

THANKS CASSBBY & BERTBERT FOR HELPING ME OUT!!!! Can't thank them enough i really can't imagine doing these decorations all by myself!!!

See the ribbons & HK banners? It was all Cass's ideaaaa :') I'm so touched i want to cry already kekekee

Alex & Nich who were the early birds, ended up helping me with the balloons :D

Then Voulu Events (the dj crew) came to set up everything...

After all the decorations, we bathed, did our hair &makeup and camwhore while waiting for the guests to arrive!

Cutie hairband my sis got for me from Korea ^^

the 2 guys (Dickson & Ian) are the young bosses of Voulu Events!

my bbygirls ;)
(above pictures are taken using my own camera, then Vincent came to help me out~)

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING CASSBBY I LURBEEE YOU!!!

THANKS DADDY&MUMMY FOR HELPING OUT WITH THE FOOD!!! & sorry to make you two so worried that night :(

It was quite a disappointment that i received almost 10texts that day from friends who couldn't make it last minute :( Ohwell, here are some pics of friends who made it in time for the cake cutting! Some friends came late though so i didn't really take any pics with them :(

LOVE U JXBBY!!!!! :D

left: we totally looked like powerpuff girls HAHAHAHA
right: relatives who dropped by that night!! Thanks Dajiumu for those lovely kueykuey that you made with love :)

WHY SO MANY PEOPLE DRESS IN YELLOW THAT DAY :(
Even suckier when the background is also yellow in colour haha omg i feel so un-special that night :(
AND LOUIE... what's with your pose!? hahahaha

lovely uni peeps!!!

My 2 tier candypop cake from Shibertys! Ordered butterscotch flavour with rainbow interior and OMFG it tastes freaking awesomeeeee. Had alot of compliments from my friends that day hehe. #cravingforcakesnow

I LOOK LIKE CRAP hahaha

Weijian was the first who made me down one cup instantly. They called him the 'culprit' hahahah

love the left picture, so kawaii ^,^

Pictures from Voulu Events side:

haha like quite a crazy scene hor

my 2 baobeis :)

haha this photo is like "cannot cannot i gonna puke already" LOL

Just tell me... what are they analysing?

I supposed this is the period when my friends are all trying to talk to my mum... lol~
like "Chill Auntie chill" hahaha

I must be whining then to Pierre hahahaha

That's my 21st for you ^^ though things got abit crazy at the end like i was drunk blahblah, but i hope my friends all enjoyed it. Sorry if i hadn't been a good host that night :(

Ps: Thanks cassbby for this lovely prezzie, lovelovelove you!!

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger

2011-10-05T05:26:00.001+08:00

It would be a lie to say i wasn't hurt and disappointed with your actions. I felt so cheated honestly. Like i said, if i were to forgive you, then i would really have been a Buddha in my past life. I appreciated the long 6hours talk we had though.

To the you-know-who-you-are person, just stop whatever you're doing k? This is getting nowhere. And u wouldn't want me to expose all your dirty acts here on my space. So just, stop???

Till then~

I'm hurt but no, it's not bringing me down

2011-10-03T22:52:00.006+08:00

I'm trembling in fear. This uncertainty and doubts, they are killing me bit by bit.

Do you even understand how i feel?

I wished i could publish and vent out every single fucking thing here. Yet i know i can't.Why are things getting... so complicated?

BUT, i choosed to believe in you. I do hope everything that you said are the truth. I really, really trust you alot and i don't wanna doubt you anymore. I just don't want any more tension between us. I know we are much stronger than this, right?

Keep Calm & Party!

2011-10-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

AI XIN BREAKKIE

2011-09-30T14:19:00.005+08:00

Cut out pieces of bread in heart shapes awwww kawaii huh

Dragged myself out of bed at like 5am though i was sick to make breakfast for my mummy before she left home for work! :D
I was so sick &tired last night i fell asleep at 8.30pm ok!!!
Oh the white batter in the bowl is the Pancake Mix! Just gotta buy the mix, add in some water &egg and you're all set to cook!! Tastes quite good actually especially with honey :D

Breakfast for mummy! Didn't have the time to cook eggs so I put butter&peanutbutter inside the bread!

Went off to bed again for another 1hr before waking up again to cook breakfast round 2!

Breakfast for my Dear P!

DON'T LAUGH AT MY LIL MINI PANCAKES!!!
It's so difficult to make them into a full round circle :( I tried my best... heh!

Egg Sandwich, Sausage, Bacon, Pancakes and Strawberries! All made with love and had them delivered to P's house &had breakfast with him :D

***
I really do regret the things i do. It's foolish of me to let go of something... that I've ever wanted. Now it's so hard getting you back. I really regretted leaving you. But is it too late to realise it now? I'm so sorry for betraying your trust in me, sorry to destroy this love we had. I may still look like i'm cheery and all, that's just cuz i kept all my emotions to myself & i don't want anyone to worry for me, esp friends and family. How many nights do i cry myself to sleep, wanting to hear your voice so much before i go to bed like how i used to. Everytime when i get to see you, my heart skipped a little, &when you give me your cute lil smile, i melt a whole lot. This is how much i still love you so dearly.. But everytime you give me the cold shoulders, and all your rejections. My heart died a little day by day. I think i'm so getting used to this heartache.

Throughout the car journey today, all i could do was to look at you silently. But my heart was bleeding, and crying so loudly.

CHOMPCHOMP FOR CASS'S 20TH!

2011-09-28T03:35:00.003+08:00

As the title suggests, we headed over to Serangoon Gardens for chompchomp to feast abit &to pre-celebrate Cassbby's 20th birthday!

she hugging my prezzies to her :D (deliberately not giving her paper bags hahahaha)

frolick to find shushu!!! :D &passed him prezzie i got from london!

As what Steph said... the sugarcane drinks likka not in mugs it's like a BUCKET. Friggin huge hahaha!

SINFUL FOOD.
I. NEED. TO. BE. ON. A. DIET....... LIKE. SERIOUSLY.

my face getting rounder fml

love this shot of my 2 babies!!!!

& yanzhen bought her a slice of oreo cheesecake and we sang hapz birthday song @chompchomp LOL!

HAPPY 4 FRIENDS I LOVE ALL OF THEM SO MUCHIE!!!

So once again... HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY CASSBABY!!! Hope u had fun today!!! ai ni ai ni ai ni!!
And i'm issuing last warning to ur f-face STOP DOING THIS EXPRESSION OKAY!!!

And for the curious ones... these are what i got for cass!

that's a big HK poster btw hahahaha!

Anyway school started on monday and so far it was okay except for corporate finance class today which is dead-boring. Not to mention her accent..... Assume = ashume. And normally we Singaporeans like to go "errrrr" but she likes to do "Eh-yerrr" and she literally ehyerrr once every 10seconds. Damn annoying i couldn't stop laughing haha!

I love school, but i really hate the waking up part. And it really doesn't helps when lessons on mon&tues starts at 8.30am meaning i have to be up at 6.15am :'( Thank god for tumblr app in my bb so i can do some tumblr-ing while on the train/bus :D I even do blog on tumblr sometimes in classes/otw to school haha and random moments!

Okay 12pm class tmr! My last hope for me to have some eyecandies in class. Previous 3 classes suck btw :(

MY LAST DAY OF THE HOLIDAYS!

2011-09-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

Met my dearest Christina on Friday night for dinner at Manhattan!! Yumz love the Manhattan Flaming Platter!
The last time i had it was with Pierre.. :( OKAY. *chucks sad things aside*
Love this girl so much, it's always nice talking to her :) A great friend, great colleague & a great school buddy!

Then met Yzbby on Sat for flb flea @SOUL!

This is the only loot i got from the flea for $10 *yippeee* damn lucky that it was in my size and it fits me perfectly when i came home to try it on ;) The stalls were GREAT, but the location was BAD. The paths are so narrow, we can't even stop to take a look at the stuffs, we had to keep moving on else we'll block the entire pathway. So yupps. Both of us got one thing each only :( sad but nvm, at least we didn't burn a hole in our pocket :D

Headed for bbq with the uni friends after that!
We finally ditched the clubs and drinking for a healthier activity :D

earlybirds to reach!

Ordered all these catered bbq food through hungrybbq. Saves us the hassle from lugging everything and it's kinda cheap!

The firestarters!

YAYYYY

all my pretty girls!
Oh and srsly, Graciabby lost SO MUCH weight. I feel so guilty now :( time to exercise.......

With Qixuan who's gonna be my buddy for the next 1 year! We have the same exact timetable whoohoo glad i'm not alone :D

Vivien bbq-ed this and it looks damn disturbing HAHAHA. Well, they asked me to take this shot one uh.. i'm innocent~

GRACIA BRING ME GO EXERCISE TGT!!!

JXBBY!!!

Qiupeng made the yummy salad for us!! So sweeeet!

Okay so this marks THE END OF MY 4 MONTHS OF HOLIDAY.
Can i cryyyy???? :'( So many things happened during this holiday, how i wished it was just a nightmare and i could wake up from it :(

First day of school tmr, kind of excited that i can't sleep.
Yep, don't remind me. Now i have to wake up at god damn 6.15AM & it's not funny at all.

Goodnight world! Give me some eyecandies in class please hahaha
xoxo

2011-09-24T01:19:00.007+08:00

Sometimes all you need is to be away from everyone for sometime to know who and what you really want. I'm really glad this trip to Europe for a month made me realised that. And now, there's just full of regrets. All i can do is to try my best to save everything, and i keep telling myself i can do this, we can do this. Can we? But i'm starting to be tired from trying. To face this coldness of yours. To know that you would no longer be there when i need you. To know that I'm no longer a part in your hectic schedule. I need you to be physically and emotionally there for me, which i don't get anymore. You said you missed me, but did you even try talking to me? I still love you. But what do i do now? Is it really time that i should let things go?

I miss you my babyboy, even though you're just right behind me now. Sigh, it's all my fault.

Buckingham Palace & StJames Park

2011-09-23T23:37:00.001+08:00

On the 3rd day in London, the folks and I visited the Buckingham Palace to watch the world famous 'Changing of Guards' duty. I thought we were already kiasu enough to reach half an hour earlier before the parade started, but it was already mad packed when we reached which means, no good spots and so.. mehhhhh~ pictures.

Yea see the crowd.

WOOOOZ~

2 guards only which means the Queen isn't inside the Palace! If she's in, there'll be 4 guards :D
After the much boring wait under the hot sun + facing the irritated faces of many, the parade finally started!

I thought one part was kind of funny, the military band was playing to the tune of 'YMCA'? Then all the crowd outside started singing hahaha so not formal.

Lunch at Bumbles with erjie!

Walked past Buckingham Palace again after lunch cuz we're heading to St James Park!

my fav taxiiiiiiiiii

ST JAMES PARK!!!!!
I really like how everyone can just find a spot on the grass, lie and sleep/chill/picnic all day long.

So pweeeety right the flowers :)

FLOWERS TOO PRETTY I NEED TO SPAM A FEW

I LOVE DUCKS AREN'T THEY SO ADORABLE!!!!!! (dont eat ducks ok dont eat dont eat)

Awww this Swan looks sad :(

Walk to the end of the park and we'll reach Westminster!

London Eye, which is 99% similar to our flyer hahaha

Then my all time favourite again... Oxford Street!!

Visited the Natural History Musuem on one of the days too with my mommy.

Check out the queue yoz! What's good abt London is that most musuems are FREEEEEEE. hahaha so y'can just visit museums all day long just that you'll get bored somehow after awhile, like everything just looks the same to you. Natural History museum kinda different though cuz it houses the fossils of the extinct dinosaurs!!!!

cool cool cool

UOL was nearby the museum too so we took a walk over there.
idk if i've been to the wrong campus anot cuz they don't look like a school to me. But if u google... they're all in like castles forms so pretty but the ones i saw was.......................

miss seeing all these pretty buildings :(

2011-09-22T03:22:00.004+08:00

This week has been great so far and life is kind of more-on-track. Kicked some people outta my life, a hang out with a good old friend and finally settled school stuffs, like some weird continuation fee that has to be paid to London through the vle which I don't have an account for. That sucks ok, have to go through all the hassle of emails and stuffs to get my account up and running. So anyway, I registered to attend this talk by this British Council on Advice to study in UK. It's even more exciting when i got to know that tangtang signed up for it too :D That aside, i signed up for a Career Preparation Workshop (Interviewing & first impression, resume writing, job search techniques & methods) as well. Wooo this is really so not me but i think it's time I do something about my future, especially after a talk with P sometime ago. So many plans i have in mind now, which includes summer exchange in Korea + internship at the end of Year 2. Yes go me go me.

I seriously can't wait to start school. I don't like the studying part, but i miss going to school, seeing my friends, making new friends, lunch dates, studying dates, catching my friends snoozing in lectures, camwhore sessions and of cuz, dressing up for school :D teeheehee. Am also thinking of joining something in school, to build up my resume... like perhaps.. Student Council? It seems fun, but i'm afraid it'd be too busy and takes up too much of my time. Then again, it's good to be busy huh so i'll have less time for myself, and be able to fight that urge of wanting to meet P. heh.

Gonna meet tangtang on Friday for movie+dinner date, flb flea before a bbq date with my uni friends on Sat (how come they no thank me, i went through so much to organise this yknow!!!!!) and chompchomp on tuesday with my bbygirls!! :D Wah awesome days ahead :)

And oh, last week i had this sudden urge of cutting short hair. Now, i can't wait for my bangs to grow. All the tumblr pictures so prettyyyyy i want hair like theirs!!! ~.~ Ok back to editing my Europe pictures, more tumblr-ing, catch some sleep before it's frolick again!

Looking forward to the 10th of next month. Cause that will be the day I shall decide if this wait is still worth waiting for..

I SMURF YOU!

2011-09-20T23:46:00.001+08:00

Met Steph today to walk around town + to watch Smurfs (so cuteee omg)!! It's been so long Bestie!!! :)
On a side note, I seriously need a movie buddy!! hahaha. Anyoneee?

Went to Frolick to find my favourite tangtang & gave her prezzies i got from London!

had thai food for late lunch!

Both of us dressed in black coincidentally!

Can't wait for bkk so i can buy all the chioest bb housings in the world :D

and work, as usual...

JOHNNY ENGLISH REBORN YAO BU YAO???

Dance Dance - Dancing in the Dark

2011-09-18T18:20:00.001+08:00

Went to phuture yesterday since school is starting really really soon..
Sigh kinda sad that it's like the last few chances to party already cuz i'm not the kind who would party often when school is on~

Yanzhen &Jasmine supposed to be with us toooo but both of them pangseh :( So left with Cass&Huizhen!

Frolick babies :)

And i cooked for Friday's dinner :D
Creamy Carbonara sauce Pasta with Frankfurt Sausages from Germany, Wild Mushrooms, Onions and fried chicken!

Then i surprised Pierre over at his office for supper while he's working :D
Stayed tgt with him in the office till like 5am? Thank god for tumblr and my korean drama to keep me accompany :)

Next week's gonna be a busy weeeeek. Working like 6days omg but okay i shouldnt complain cuz i really need $$$, too freaking broke after London's shopping. Speaking about that, hahahaha my loots are all still nicely packed in the paper bags... NEED to pack my clothes before school starts, period.

2011-09-17T06:15:00.000+08:00

I don't think having no time is an excuse. Would dropping a few texts really take up alot of your time?

2011-09-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

Cassbby who came over my house the next day after i came back from London!! :)

& i met my lovely baby jx for supper the same day! Awww my friends are such sweeties :D

Can't exactly recalled what happened but Friday was a super impromptu decision to Zouk! Prolly cuz Yanzhen & I were feeling pretty down, and cosmic gate was in zouk + Dickson could get us in free :D

Heh Dickson even brought his own Martell hahaha + he drank 40 apple shooters that night i think. Crazy guy~

it was a funnnnnnnnn night hehe it started out as us 3, but more friends came and we formed this mega huge circle that literally blocked the whole walking passage lol.

Then it was Shaun's birthday on Saturday!

So many people couldn't make it, i was the only girl from our Uni that night :( Thank god Cassbby accompanied me to the party hehehe. What a crazyyy night seriously~

and.. THANKS SHAUN FOR THIS LOVELY HK KEYCHAIN :D

So anyway, lots of people been asking what camera i've been using for all my pictures especially for my London/Phuket trip.. so this is it: CANON IXUS 130. It is just a typical digital camera, and i think the latest model is Ixus 210 which has a wider angle than my 130. I guess no matter which camera you're using, it really boils down to your photography skills and picture editing. Still, i love my ixus 130 alot. It's light, slim and so easy to use rather than the usual bulky dslr. Hope you guys had an awesome Wednesday. Mine suck cuz I slept at 10am and woke up at 6pm, that is like... 3/4 of the day gone. GREAT.

The first few days in London~

2011-09-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

Jacinda & Cassbaby came to send me off *loveeee*

Cassbby as usual, being so sweeeeet!! Hahahaha u're frolick's cutest girl to me okkayyy xoxo

Took a midnight flight so kind of empty... Isn't midnight flight better? Like u can just instant zombified inside righttt?

At Dubai International Airport for transit! It was bad bad bad, had to wait 3hours? Plus i'm feeling damn sleepy and then no where to sleep #sopoorthing

London's Underground Tube map~~

FINALLY INSIDE THE FREAKING PLANE TO LONDONNNNN!!!

Was given a choice between like fish fillet set/chicken set and i chosed the fish one. But i guess it ran out so the stewardess came back with either the business class/first class seafood set!! WHOOO there's like prawns, lobster, scallop, fish and potato!! Hahahah i swear the person sitting beside me went @.@

5pounds = $10 for one friggin train ride =.=

Don't remind me how a nightmare it was to carry 1 personal bag and 2 luggages up and down the stairs, in and out of the train. Urggghhh~

AND IM FINALLY HERE IN VICTORIA STATION!!! *jumps*

Hahaha i remembered Erjie was like "Wahhh u totally dont look like someone who just survived a 20hours flight!" hahahaha

And this is where i stayed, on the highest floor, like a penthouse!

& sis prepared pasta for me before i came :D damn damn damn hungryyyyyy~ The rest of the day was just me pigging away till the next morning :O

Spitalfields Sunday Market!

nomnomnommm

GOTTA TRY THIS WHEN YOU'RE THERE but i forgot the name of the drink already hehehe

seriously, cupcakes are everywhere!!

& YES this is where i got the inspiration from to always eat strawberries with fresh creammmm!!! yummyzz

Then to Chinatown!

I love my Dad!! I used to look ALOT like him when i was young, i dont know what happened over the years though hehehehe

Soho = Gay Pubs areaaa!

Leicester Square!

Churchill War Room Museum for some WWII stuffs!

It's been a week since i'm back!!

2011-09-10T08:41:00.001+08:00

Why am i always waiting like a fool?

Jetlag

2011-09-09T10:27:00.002+08:00

This is mad. It's already 10.30am and i still can't sleep. Literally trying to force myself to sleep since 6am but failed maximum. Omg this is the first time i'm experiencing this and it certainly sucks big time. Urgh.